pirateslifeforme*

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Joined: July 15, 2012
Last Seen: 1 year
Birthday: April 19
user id: 317578
Location: uk
Gender: F



I like papa roach, get scared, set it off, bullet for my valentine, melanie martinez, paramore , fall out boy, blink 182, for all those sleeping, linkin park. Generally music like that mostly.
  My top 3 films are: Its kind of a funny story, 10 things i hate about you and would you rather.
  I make the same stupid stupid mistakes over and over again
Sorry if you thought this was gonna be intereseting. Its not. I'm not. I also I have no idea how to make my profile look nice

Quotes by pirateslifeforme*

Do I really care? Or do I only care because I know I should
I hate who I'm becoming
i have recently discouvered that i am pretty much unable to control my emotions. if i have a small argument, i dont just get annoyed i get extremely angry that i cant help but scream at that person and punch walls and shake and cry and i cant control the anger. and if my sad, im really sad and i cant do anything productive and have fits of unstoppable crying. if im guilty im really guilty and cant stop sayimg sorry and begging the person to forgive me. if i like soneone, i love them so much and cant admit they have ever done anything wrong to me and are obsessive. if i hate someome im consumed with hate. and if the only good thing about all this, is that if i feel extremely happy, i feel like i could take on the world. and all of these extreme emotions never last longer than a day, sonetimes they last a couple hours before im okay. anyone else like this or is it just me?
Places stained

That road we walked on a many times, the field we used to kiss
All these places which are stained with the memories makes me miss
You
And your hair, your laugh, your smile, the way you held me
Now I can't even pass through that road or field or cafe
Through these years you never let me be, let me go
F*cked around with my feelings from sunshine to snow.
Now these thoughts, delusional as they may seem but..
We were right together, perhaps belong together

No im not a sensitive psycho b*tch, NEVER
have i been like that.
Just when you just destroy the person who loved you, only you and the most
its going to do some damage.
To the soul, the person that once was is gone
Suffocated by the memories whch are everywhere
They jut wont leave me alone in the woods, on the cold and starry night.
We watched the stars once and laughed until ou tummies ached, never did we fight.

F*ck
now my face is wet, make up smudged, alone in the night and i simply cannot bear it.
There is only darkness in this tunnel, like searching for love from you when there was none, but there is no light



P.S this aint really a poem i could write it better if i wanted to , just needed to express emotion
 

Glad to know that now school has finished, a good friend of mine, who has also been a ex bf too many times (some say me being used multiple times is a more correct description of it) has now literally blocked me on almost every social media I have them on, when nothing even happened apart from us both leaving school. Glad to know someone I cared about a great deal, probably never once cared about me
Having online friends is great except when you have no other friends so you can never go out with friends and just enjoy someone else's company. And that feeling of having no one to simply hang about with just sucks
I am a degenerate beauty queen
On second thoughts i'm not beautiful or a queen.
I am just a f*cking degenerate XD

It hit me suddenly and it was fast and I can't believe it finally happened. I'm not talking about love, i'm talking about a more powerful, more life-consuming emotion: Hate. Suddenly like I had been hit in the face, every bad thing he had ever done, ever said, every single time he manipulated me, used me and lied to me it came to me like a painful slap but on the heart. And then I started shaking with anger and hatred and I never wanted to see him again but I wanted him to know how much I hated his guts. The hate consumed me like a strong tide. I finally understood how people could hate their ex's because before I had always been confused on how someone could hate someone they once loved but oh my,, I hated him 100x more than I have ever hated. So much it was hard to breathe with the hatred weighing down and consuming my heart.


Or maybe I just feel emotions too much but oh well

But please don't get me wrong, i'm not bitter or mad. It's not that I still love you, it's not cause I want you back. It's just that when I think of you, it just makes me gag. -Eminem Puke (love this song, partially because it describes my feelings for a certain ex of mine)
Well everything's getting too much already and then one of my closest friends goes and tells me he doesn't plan on ever speaking to me again after we both leave school in a month. Thats how much I mean to people