Why am I the only one that has to watch what I eat (according to my mother) just because I'm not as small as my sister's and brother's. Just because I like to eat. Just because my father's side of the family is a little big. DOES NOT give you any reason to tell me I'm not good enough. To make me feel Like I'm not. You are the reason I'm so insecure of my body. How could you not notice how you make your daughter feel. I feel like I'm just never going to be good enough for you because I'm fat, ugly, and stupid. Why am I the only one that has to go through any of this.
Well I
guess that covers it love you mommy and I hope one day you could
understand any of this.
So my mother keeps pointing out that I need to watch what I eat when everyone is around or that I gained or need to lose weight. I'm starting to feel like I am fat but I'm feeling more that my mom doesn't love me for what I am. I know I'm nowhere near fat or even big but when she says things like that it hurts and it makes me feel like I'm not going to be good enough or pretty enough for anything because I will never be beautiful. I know everyone tells me I'm pretty and I'm beautiful and that she's wrong but the fact that she's my mom it makes it worse if it was someone off the street I would brush it off but its her its the person that is suppose to tell me I look beautiful for what I am and not that I can't have the fries eat carrots. i know I'm not as small as my sister's and brothers but I'm me and she makes me feel like im nothing but ugly and fat. And now I don't know how to react to it but hold back the tears and go to my room so I can break down because no one will love me for what I am.