The Falling Problems
Chapter 2
I blinked
away tears as I ran away from him down the hallway, away from my
math class. I didn't care about that though, I was too upset,
and Mr. D would understand. I ran to the courtyard, where my
friends with lunch that period were eating. I sunk down into the
corner seat I occupied every period I was there, and I allowed
only one or two tears to fall before I stopped myself.
I sat there, for half an hour.
Nobody spoke to me. We'd all been through this similar drill
before. AJ breaks me in half, and I piece myself together in the
courtyard instead of classes I already knew the coursework
for.
Of course, someone had
to break the unspeakable rule... "Hey... Ella?" the
voice asked.
My head snapped up, alarmed.
This was someone who clearly did not know the unspoken rules of
the courtyard. An outsider of sorts. He was tall, tan, dark
haired. I recognized him immediately as Drake. A girl who used to
be a good friend of mine had dated him a few times, but broken up
for reasons I didn't know...
Me and Drake weren't close, and I
was confused as to why he was talking to me, so I played nice,
"Yeah? What's up Drake?"
"I... uh.... Heard what happened
in the hallway with you and AJ after my math class... You guys
were right outside my door... Are you alright...?"
Now I was suspicious... What did he
want? He could not actually CARE!? So what? "Yeah, yeah,
I'll be fine."
"Okay... well... If you need
someone to talk... You have my number I assume." He went to
walk away.
And for the second time that day, I
surprised myself: "Actually: I don't," I said
boldly, "Shay never put it in when you were
dating...?"
I internally smacked myself "What are
you doing El!?!?!" I questioned myself mentally.
"Oh! Here, I'll give it to
you!" He responded easily, as if he hadn't a care in the
world. He took out a pen from his bag, and took my outspread hand
(still in slapping position, for when he left and I could
properly face-palm myself) and began to write down his phone
number. I was amazed at the little jolt I felt when he first
grabbed my hand.
I hadn't felt that little jolt since
"no!" I stopped my thoughts in their track,
"Don't think about him," I told myself repeatedly,
"AJ's no good for you!"
"There you go!" Drake
grinned, pulling me back to reality. "See you
around!"
And with that, he left. Leaving me
quite a bit confused...
The Falling Problems
Chapter 1
"I did
it again. I fell for his stupid lies.. This is the THIRD time!
Come ON Ella you've gotta get a hold of yourself. GET. OVER.
HIM." I told myself after I got home from school.
My ex-best friend of several
years has just gone and broken my heart. Again. I've known
him ten years, we've been close for 8. Dated once, he
cheated. Dated twice, he cheated. And now a year later, he's
done it yet again. And this time, "I've had enough. I
will be done with that boy if it is the last thing I do!"
were the thoughts running through my head, not "how am I
going to get him back....". And I was determined to succeed.
problem is... How....?
After thinking all night, no sleep, I
had nothing. No list of guys I'd be willing to date. No plan
of revenge. Nothing. So I went to school the next day, exhausted,
upset, and feeling pretty much like I had nowhere to go.
Second period through fifth period,
no diice on anything. Nothing interesting, I felt, if possible,
even more hopeless in regards to my "get over the
douche" plan than I had earlier in the morning.
Sixth period, I ran into HIM. "Hey
Ella... About yesterday... Can we just..." He started his
plea to forget it happened, but I surprised myself...
"No. AJ I will not just forget this
time. I told you yesterday!" I bravely interrupted him. I
felt broken as I said the words I knew I needed.
"But El! I thought you loved me!"
He said the L-word. Now there was going to be hell to pay.
"I loved you!? YES! You said you loved
ME as well though AJ!!! I'm done! No more! This was the final
time!" I whispered to him quietly, but fiercely.
I saw his eyes widen in surprise, but as he
reached for my arm, I was already gone...
RIP Amy Lumos
You will forever be in the hearts
of all your loved ones.
"The pain we feel at this dreadful
loss reminds me reminds us, that while we may come from different
places and speak in different tongues...
OUR HEARTS BEAT AS
ONE."
~Albus P.W.B. Dumbledore
♥♥♥♥
We will never forget, promise.
From a caring admin named
⚡Fleur
BREAKING RULES
Chapter Four...:
I sat there in shock for a moment. His question had struck me to
the core. The question I would have never imagined he'd
ask.
I saw the look of anxiety on his features, the worry in his eyes;
as I finally looked at him for the first time since we'd
really started the conversation.
I smiled at him. Not the fake one I pulled at Paul. A genuine
smile of true, genuine happiness. "You're kidding, right
Mish?"
He looked in sorrow at the ground, standing. "No... I
wasn't... I knew it... I'm sorry..." He said as he
turned to walk away.
"Mish no!!" I exclaimed, "Come back over
here!"
"Why?" he asked, "I know now... Don't pretend
anymore for my sake. You've got Paul, and your rules..."
He went of muttering.
"MISHA!" I yelled, "Listen! I do! You're being
stupid!"
"But you said yes to him..."
"Because I thought you'd never let yourself like me
Mish..." I murmured looking at my feet.
He stared at me. Shock written all over his face.
"You're not kidding?" he asked.
"Not a bit..." I said to my feet.
"I wish Paul hadn't been here-" He began, but was
interrupted by Andy and Dan clamoring up the steps.
"Awwww sibling moment!" Andy cooed, ever the oblivious
one.
But Dan, Paul's best friend, saw. He knew. I saw him figure
it out. Realization dawned on him as he watched Misha and I
glance at each other. His eyes wide for a moment, then glaring
the next.
We walked down the steps. Misha and I walking together like
usual, with Dan watching us from behind. We whispered to each
other, figuring it all out.
"What now?" I said.
"Paul?" Misha asked.
"I'm going to."
"When? Soon?" he pushed.
"Of course. What after that?" I responded.
"Good. And then we can hook up until it's
clear?"
"Whattaya mean?" I wondered.
"Clear to date without the gossip about you breaking up with
Paul for me and that whole crap."
"But that would be the truth...?" I said in
confusion.
"Doesn't mean we need the rumors." He said, nudging
me to end the whispered conversation due to Dan hovering trying
to eavesdrop.
Soon, we all went our separate ways. To our assorted and varied
homes and sleepovers. Little did I suspect at the time just how
hectic the next day would be for me and Misha...
BREAKING RULES
Chapter 3...:
Ryan and I laughed and joked together all night that night. And
nearly every day both in school and not.
We had mutual friends, so whenever everyone hung out? We ended up
seeing each other anyway! No 'guys night' or 'girls
night' because my friends usually include me in the guys
night,and the girls and I aren't close.
So on the outside, it looked like an ideal High School
relationship. Fun, teasing each other, making out, last minute
homework, hanging out with friends. But to me at least, it was a
nightmare from the minute I said "yes" that night.
Misha, my best friend I was in love with, shared all the classes
I did with Paul, and we hung out every day after school. Every
party, every library trip, every detention. Misha or Misha and
Paul were there.
Absolute agony. My head ached at the mere sight of the two of
them in the same room with me. And what's worse? My solution
was to go to a party with Misha. Turns out Paul got invited
too...
I drank. They were both there, I was stressed. I don't know
how much I was having, I lost count.
I wandered around the apartment we were at with Paul. We made
out, I know we didn't get to third base, because I remember
one of the few things I could think about was Misha right in the
next room... Probably hooking up with some girl.. It was killing
me.
Ryan left earlier. He wasn't that drunk, so he didn't
have to worry about his parents finding out like the rest of us.
I was relieved. I sprinted through the apartment.
"Mish!? Misha!" I called out everywhere.
Finally someone answered, "He went walking around town with
Ashley and Neesha!"
Panic. I only remember panicking. I felt my eyes go wide, I knew
I had to tell him. I had to tell him that night. The alcohol
pumping through me was telling me I had to.
I flew down the 3 flights of stairs and out into the street. I
ran to the first place I knew he'd be if they were hooking up
or just hanging out, the roof of the bank.
I practically leapt up the stairs to find him, tell him that I
loved him, that I had to break up with Ryan.
He was there. Alone. Lying on the roof.
Relieved, I slid down to him. "Whattaya doing here?" I
asked him.
"Just thinkin'. Why're you here?" He said
without looking away from the sky.
"Whatcha thinking 'bout?"
"Stuff!" he replied laughing.
"Oh really?!" I laughed with him, looking to the stars
and sky like he was, "Well if you tell me, I'll tell you
why I'm up here!"
"Fine then!" He chuckled, "it's kind of
important to me though!" His face suddenly serious.
Worried, I said "Mish! It's me!" I grinned,
"If it's serious to you, I won't make fun!" I
let my countenance become a bit solemn as well,
"Promise!"
He looked at me finally. His dark eyes looking into my lighter
green-blue ones. "Why do you wear your contacts?" He
asked me.
"'Cause I always have!"
"But I like your eyes! I like them this color too. But I
think I like the other colors better." He paused and nodded,
as if to confirm his thoughts.
I was about to reply when he continued: "I'm thinking
about this girl... I like her. Alots. And... I may be coming to
love her. But... There's no way she'd love me back.
We're too good friends to risk stuffs like that."
I was saddened greatly. I knew it couldn't be me.
"Well, she's an idiot! She must be stupid not to see
what anyone smart would!" I replied, trying to be supportive
staring upwards. I knew if I looked at his eyes at least one tear
would fall.
He paused. "No.. She's not... But what do you see!
You're smart yeah!"
I thought for a second, my mind suddenly clear of anything but
honesty. "Well. I see a guy who is confident enough to put
his music out there to his peers. A guy who doesn't let
people show when they say things that hurt him because he knows
people look to him to be strong despite the words. I see a guy
who is pretty hot, and my favorite person in the world. The most
honest guy I've ever met."
I felt his eyes on me as I kept staring at the night sky.
"But if she sees all that like you say... Why doesn't
she like me?"
"Do you know she doesn't? Have you asked her
yourself?" I inquired.
"No.. But I think I will!" out of the corner of my eye,
I saw a small shy smile light up his face.
We were quiet for a moment. And then came the question I'd
half dreaded, half wished for after a month and a half of dating
Paul.
"Do you feel the same as me El?"
BREAKING
RULES
Chapter 2...:
I was on the way to the town movie theater with Danny, Paul,
Misha, and Alex; all guy friends of mine. While we were walking,
Paul pulled me off to the side, and we walked behind everyone
else.
"Hey how's it going?" he asked me shyly.
Teasing, I answered: "pretty slow. Snails could beat us to
the movie theater at this pace!"
He laughed, I smiled. We kept walking.
"So... How are things with Brad?" he asked about my
crazy most recent ex boyfriend.
"Over, done, and I've heard nothing but radio silence
from him," I replied, "Just how I like him." I
rolled my eyes to prove how annoying I thought Brad was.
"Well! That's interesting" Paul said.
"Why?" I asked, curious, but knowing what might be
coming next.
"Well..." He began, "If you are most definitely
single...I can as you out right?"
"You could, in theory!" I countered smiling.
"Well, I think I might!" He declared, "Do you want
to go out with me? Be my girlfriend? All that good
stuff?"
I laughed, even though I was panicking. What about
Misha... I thought to myself. But I glanced at him walking
ahead; not a care in the world, clueless to how I felt.
It's better this way, I told myself.
I looked back at Paul's questioning face, "well you
see!" I smiled, "After much deliberation, the council
has come to a decision!"
"Oh? Have they? What is this decision?"
"Yes" I said, grinning as the wind blew my red-blonde
hair in front of my face.
I was grinning... Yes. But inside? I was close to tears because
of what I'd just done.