I SAVED HER
LIFE.
One of my closest friends has been struggling
a lot lately. She is often depressed and cuts. Well over the
summer she cleaned up and she hadn't cut for a few months
until two days ago, on Saturday. I was trying to talk her out of
it, I told her how disappointed I was that she was going to throw
away everything she worked so hard for. She had just told me how
I am what was keeping her from cutting, and I felt like I was
letting her down. She was seriously considering suicide that day
and I told her if she was being completely serious about it I
would take her to a counselor, we would get help together, or I
would make her talk to my "sister" who attempted 4
months ago tomorrow.
This is the text she sent me today: "You ar amazing, and I
can't even describe to you how much you mean to me, how much
I value to call you my friend, you may think you would always
lose the battle between me and cutting but today you won the
war." I said I was proud of her, and she said
"I'm being
serious, there is no reason to be proud of me, but you saved a
life this evening, you should be proud of
yourself."
I don't know what happened, but I trust that she will tell me
in time. She's afraid to tell me right now because she knows
I will cry when I find out. But I did cry tonight. Tears of joy
knowing that I still have her here with me. That I don't have
to go through every day afraid that I won't see her
again tomorrow. Her thoughts are no longer consumed with
when and how she is gonna leave, and mine are not consumed with
pain of losing her.
She's still
here.
Stay strong, honey. I love you. <3
(sorry it's so long,
if you actually read this thank you, I appreciate
it)