it_will_be_ok

Status: be who you were created to be
Joined: February 11, 2012
Last Seen: 9 years
Birthday: April 20
user id: 272954
Gender: F
My name is Sydney and I'm 16. PNW born and raised, but my heart is pretty much anywhere warm, especially down South. Rednecks are the best kind of people. I believe in God and the healing power of faith. Music and basketball are my passions. I hate the quiet, I'd much rather live loud and proud. I love food way to much, and I guess you could say I'm kind of a nerd?

My friend says I'm a pineapple. Because I'm hard and unpleasant on the outside, but if you work to get past that, I'm sweet on the inside. Pretty much sums it up.

Lifelong Potterhead, soul mates with Ed Sheeran, and mentally married Chris Hemworth and Andrew Garfield.

 
 
Keep calm and DFTBA.

She is clothed in strength and dignity and she laughs without fear of the future.
Proverbs 31:25

Quotes by it_will_be_ok

crying so hard you can barely breathe
praying that just for a day, the pain would end

yesterday, I found out that my best friend's sister attempted again. their mom was just saying how much better she was doing...she came home from college last night and after this I don't think she's going back.
I'm so worried about her. it was almost 5 months since the first time. my friend is a mess, I'm the only one she's allowed to talk to about it and she's holding up so much anger and sadness. their mom is a wreck. their dad is angry because he doesn't understand. I'm not sure what I can do for them because I'm upset about it too.
please. pray for her.
thank you.
the hardest thing in life is finding out someone incredibly close to you attempted suicide, then having to do your homework and go to school the next day.

this is the second time I've had to do this. two different people. they both are still here, but nothing is harder than being emotionally torn apart and having to continue your day like nothing happened.
he told our youth group how he wants to date her, the girl he's taking to homecoming.

at least now i know i never even had a chance.
Savannah: I don't like nutella.
Me: what?
Her: it tastes weird.
Me: what?
Her: am I speaking a different language?
Me: what?

true story :P
*guy my bff is friends with bumps into me*
me: hello there, Haley's friend whose name I don't know!
him: hello, Haley's friend whose name *I* do not know!
me: and it shall remain a mystery. shhhhh.
*awkward silence*
him: ok...
him: *walks away*
me: I'm so awkward, I actually REPEL them. :P
I SAVED HER LIFE.
One of my closest friends has been struggling a lot lately. She is often depressed and cuts. Well over the summer she cleaned up and she hadn't cut for a few months until two days ago, on Saturday. I was trying to talk her out of it, I told her how disappointed I was that she was going to throw away everything she worked so hard for. She had just told me how I am what was keeping her from cutting, and I felt like I was letting her down. She was seriously considering suicide that day and I told her if she was being completely serious about it I would take her to a counselor, we would get help together, or I would make her talk to my "sister" who attempted 4 months ago tomorrow.

This is the text she sent me today: "You ar amazing, and I can't even describe to you how much you mean to me, how much I value to call you my friend, you may think you would always lose the battle between me and cutting but today you won the war." I said I was proud of her, and she said "I'm being serious, there is no reason to be proud of me, but you saved a life this evening, you should be proud of yourself."

I don't know what happened, but I trust that she will tell me in time. She's afraid to tell me right now because she knows I will cry when I find out. But I did cry tonight. Tears of joy knowing that I still have her here with me. That I don't have to go through every day afraid that I won't see her again  tomorrow. Her thoughts are no longer consumed with when and how she is gonna leave, and mine are not consumed with pain of losing her.

She's still here.

Stay strong, honey. I love you. <3

(sorry it's so long, if you actually read this thank you, I appreciate it)

 
I'm not ok, I'm not oh-f.cking-kay.

i thought he liked me back, but i just found out he asked a girl to homecoming. she's beautiful, smart, funny. she's a dancer. and they're so cute together.

i don't know why i even try anymore.
one of the worst feelings in the world is feeling like your best friend, like a brother to you, is replacing you.

what's worse is when he doesn't even realize it.
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