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Welcome!
Hello darling,
my name is Kelly Elise.
I am an erratic and unconventional human being with a tendency to cry and lose interest in my work.
I do my best to keep up with this website (among my many others), however I regret to say that sometimes I fall flat and must take care of myself first before anything else.
Thank you for putting up with me, I will do my best not to disappoint your beautiful soul :-)
You are wonderful! Thank you!
Enjoy my page, enjoy today. I love you, I love you, my moon and my stars.
Forever and a day,
Kelly Elise.
Hello darling,
my name is Kelly Elise.
I am an erratic and unconventional human being with a tendency to cry and lose interest in my work.
I do my best to keep up with this website (among my many others), however I regret to say that sometimes I fall flat and must take care of myself first before anything else.
Thank you for putting up with me, I will do my best not to disappoint your beautiful soul :-)
You are wonderful! Thank you!
Enjoy my page, enjoy today. I love you, I love you, my moon and my stars.
Forever and a day,
Kelly Elise.
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DISGRACED.
CHAPTER 10: (part
4)
Sams
P.O.V:
I walked up to the door and
coughed, interrupting her family's hug.
They turned to face me.
"Sorry..." I said awkwardly, "I'm Sam- if you
don't remember..."
April turned so she was next to me, and i automatically put my
arm around her waist.
Her dad looked angry at first, but her mom just smiled.
"Well welcome to the family Sam."
...
It was later that night and we were all eating dinner.
April's Mom had made pork chops and salad.
"Wow Mrs. Taylors, this is delicious." I complimented
her.
"Call me Lauren," She laughed, "Mrs. Taylors makes
me feel old. And thank you-"
Sophie giggled and poured her applesauce on the floor.
"Sophie!" April scolded her, and I jumped up to clean
up the mess.
I picked up the bowl and brought it into the kitchen, then ran
into the laundry room to grab some paper towels.
"April!" I heard Mariah yell, "Come to the
kitchen!"
I unrolled some paper towels and was about to walk back into the
kitchen when I heard April and Mariah whispering.
"Damn little sissy, cute boyfriend." Mariah giggled,
"Sam is definitely a keeper."
"I know. I honestly don't know where I'd be without
him. And he's not just my boyfriend. We're getting
married."
Mariah practically squealed.
"When!?"
"I don't know... we've been engaged for a year now,
but we don't have an exact date for the wedding planned yet.
I hope its soon though."
A huge smile burst across my face.
I'm getting
married,
to the most amazing
girl in the world.
DISGRACED.
CHAPTER 10: (part 3)
Aprils P.O.V:
We stared at each other for a moment.
And then her eyes flashed.
Every emotion in the world filled my heart.
"MY BABY." She gasped, throwing her arms around me.
I burst into tears and started crying uncontrollably into her shoulder.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry..."
"Shhh, Shhh, baby. You're safe, you're home. my baby's home..."
"Mom? Is everything okay?" I heard someone yell from the other room.
My sister, Mariah, came walking around the corner.
"Mom- OH MY GOD! APRIL!" she cried.
We held each other in a big bear hug for a few moments, before my mom pulled me back so she could look at my face.
"How you've grown." She crooned, beaming.
I saw that she had aged too. Her once brown hair was grey at the roots, and her 5O year old face had fine wrinkles lining it.
"I thought you wouldn't want to see me again..." I stuttered, still shocked.
I turned to look at Mariah, whose hair was dyed darker and just looked a little older.
"Lauren? Riah?" I heard my dad yell from upstairs.
My family was taking me back.
CHAPTER 10: (part 3)
Aprils P.O.V:
We stared at each other for a moment.
And then her eyes flashed.
Every emotion in the world filled my heart.
"MY BABY." She gasped, throwing her arms around me.
I burst into tears and started crying uncontrollably into her shoulder.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry..."
"Shhh, Shhh, baby. You're safe, you're home. my baby's home..."
"Mom? Is everything okay?" I heard someone yell from the other room.
My sister, Mariah, came walking around the corner.
"Mom- OH MY GOD! APRIL!" she cried.
We held each other in a big bear hug for a few moments, before my mom pulled me back so she could look at my face.
"How you've grown." She crooned, beaming.
I saw that she had aged too. Her once brown hair was grey at the roots, and her 5O year old face had fine wrinkles lining it.
"I thought you wouldn't want to see me again..." I stuttered, still shocked.
I turned to look at Mariah, whose hair was dyed darker and just looked a little older.
"Lauren? Riah?" I heard my dad yell from upstairs.
My family was taking me back.
DISGRACED.
CHAPTER 10: (part 2)
Aprils P.O.V:
It was 11 in the morning when we pulled up to my house.
My house.
It was unbelievable.
It looked exactly the same as when I left.
But it had been years.
My urge to go home dropped flat. I didn't want to face this.
Sophie gurgled and I picked her up to pat her on the back.
"Wanna meet Grandma?" I whispered. I stood up with the weight of the world on my shoulders.
Sam made a move to come with me as I walked towards the door, but I needed to do this without him. It needed to just be me.
I gave him Sophie, and they waited by the road.
My heart pounded as I walked up the familiar stairs.
I could smell my mothers cooking wafting out the windows.
My body was moving slowly, but my mind was racing.
I brought my hand up to the wooden door and knocked quietly.
I heard footsteps from the other side of the door, and then,
I saw my mother.
CHAPTER 10: (part 2)
Aprils P.O.V:
It was 11 in the morning when we pulled up to my house.
My house.
It was unbelievable.
It looked exactly the same as when I left.
But it had been years.
My urge to go home dropped flat. I didn't want to face this.
Sophie gurgled and I picked her up to pat her on the back.
"Wanna meet Grandma?" I whispered. I stood up with the weight of the world on my shoulders.
Sam made a move to come with me as I walked towards the door, but I needed to do this without him. It needed to just be me.
I gave him Sophie, and they waited by the road.
My heart pounded as I walked up the familiar stairs.
I could smell my mothers cooking wafting out the windows.
My body was moving slowly, but my mind was racing.
I brought my hand up to the wooden door and knocked quietly.
I heard footsteps from the other side of the door, and then,
I saw my mother.
DISGRACED.
CHAPTER 10:
Sams P.O.V:
I grabbed Sophie's diaper bag and threw it into the back of the taxi.
Finally. she's going home.
We jumped into the taxi and the man gave me a funny look.
"3 hours? You want me drive you three hours? No way!" His thick Indian accent enhanced the shock in his voice.
"I'll pay you extra." I told him, buckling Sophie up, "I'll give you $2OO."
He exhaled reluctantly, then muttered and turned back to face the road.
April sat down in the car with me, and I could tell she was nervous. Her leg was shaking and she kept biting her lip.
I put my hand on her leg and she gently touched it with her hand.
"We're okay. Everything's okay." I whispered, and she leaned her head on my shoulder.
Kris and Phoebe waved from the outside of the Marriott, and Blake blew us a kiss.
"I'll call you booboo!" He yelled, then stuck his tongue out at April, making her giggle.
CHAPTER 10:
Sams P.O.V:
I grabbed Sophie's diaper bag and threw it into the back of the taxi.
Finally. she's going home.
We jumped into the taxi and the man gave me a funny look.
"3 hours? You want me drive you three hours? No way!" His thick Indian accent enhanced the shock in his voice.
"I'll pay you extra." I told him, buckling Sophie up, "I'll give you $2OO."
He exhaled reluctantly, then muttered and turned back to face the road.
April sat down in the car with me, and I could tell she was nervous. Her leg was shaking and she kept biting her lip.
I put my hand on her leg and she gently touched it with her hand.
"We're okay. Everything's okay." I whispered, and she leaned her head on my shoulder.
Kris and Phoebe waved from the outside of the Marriott, and Blake blew us a kiss.
"I'll call you booboo!" He yelled, then stuck his tongue out at April, making her giggle.
DISGRACED.
CHAPTER 9: (part 5)
Aprils P.O.V:
My head ached like a bomb had gone off inside it.
Jesus I drank a lot.
Even though my hangover left me feeling horrible, I was smiling.
Everyone always talked about college being all about the drinking and partying, and for a while I had felt like I was missing out by not going there. but I had had enough partying to last me a lifetime, and i had gotten to spend my entire night with Sam,
just like back in the days when we didn't have to pay rent, and didn't have a baby to look after. No doubt I loved Sophie, but she was a mixed blessing between the diaper changes and the crying for her bottle at 2am.
Cold water rushed over my feet and I realized the tide must have risen a bit.
Stretching my arms, I sat up.
My muscles ached and I noticed the hickey on my neck and the imprint in the sand of me and Sam's bodies.
I blushed as I remembered last night, and Sam chuckled.
He stood up, and we walked over to the side of the road, where we flagged down a taxi.
"Where go to?" The man asked, with a heavy accent.
"The Mariott hotel on Bakers Street." Sam told him.
I don't know what overcame me then, but at that moment, I just knew I needed to go home. Maybe it was just me being able to think for a little while, or maybe it was the feeling of being back in California. Well whatever it was, it was strong. and I knew I needed to see my parents.
CHAPTER 9: (part 5)
Aprils P.O.V:
My head ached like a bomb had gone off inside it.
Jesus I drank a lot.
Even though my hangover left me feeling horrible, I was smiling.
Everyone always talked about college being all about the drinking and partying, and for a while I had felt like I was missing out by not going there. but I had had enough partying to last me a lifetime, and i had gotten to spend my entire night with Sam,
just like back in the days when we didn't have to pay rent, and didn't have a baby to look after. No doubt I loved Sophie, but she was a mixed blessing between the diaper changes and the crying for her bottle at 2am.
Cold water rushed over my feet and I realized the tide must have risen a bit.
Stretching my arms, I sat up.
My muscles ached and I noticed the hickey on my neck and the imprint in the sand of me and Sam's bodies.
I blushed as I remembered last night, and Sam chuckled.
He stood up, and we walked over to the side of the road, where we flagged down a taxi.
"Where go to?" The man asked, with a heavy accent.
"The Mariott hotel on Bakers Street." Sam told him.
I don't know what overcame me then, but at that moment, I just knew I needed to go home. Maybe it was just me being able to think for a little while, or maybe it was the feeling of being back in California. Well whatever it was, it was strong. and I knew I needed to see my parents.
DISGRACED.
CHAPTER 9: (part 4)
Sams P.O.V:
It was funny how now, even after all this time, i still got butterflies when i saw her.
Not very manly, i know, but still.
It was like she was getting more and more beautiful each day.
She smiled softly at me, and I noticed her fiery red lipstick.
Damn.
I opened the car door for her, and she chuckled, commenting on me being a 'gentleman.'
...
When we pulled up outside the club, the music was blaring, and she winked at me.
"Where should I park-"
"Come on!" April giggled, and grabbed my arm, running into the nightclub.
Her hands were soft.
The rest is all a blur of dubstep and alcohol.
...
I woke up, terribly hungover, on a beach.
April was lying with her head on my chest asleep.
I nuged her and she blinked, then sat up.
"What time is it?" She yawned, looking around with blurry eyes.
"uh... 8am." I checked my watch.
"mmm." she mumbled, then rubbed her eyes. She reminded me of a sleepy kitten.
"That was pretty crazy last night." She laughed, laying back down next to me.
"Yeah." I smiled.
And for once, i felt like i had nothing to worry about.
All I had to do was lay there with her, and listen to the ocean waves.
CHAPTER 9: (part 4)
Sams P.O.V:
It was funny how now, even after all this time, i still got butterflies when i saw her.
Not very manly, i know, but still.
It was like she was getting more and more beautiful each day.
She smiled softly at me, and I noticed her fiery red lipstick.
Damn.
I opened the car door for her, and she chuckled, commenting on me being a 'gentleman.'
...
When we pulled up outside the club, the music was blaring, and she winked at me.
"Where should I park-"
"Come on!" April giggled, and grabbed my arm, running into the nightclub.
Her hands were soft.
The rest is all a blur of dubstep and alcohol.
...
I woke up, terribly hungover, on a beach.
April was lying with her head on my chest asleep.
I nuged her and she blinked, then sat up.
"What time is it?" She yawned, looking around with blurry eyes.
"uh... 8am." I checked my watch.
"mmm." she mumbled, then rubbed her eyes. She reminded me of a sleepy kitten.
"That was pretty crazy last night." She laughed, laying back down next to me.
"Yeah." I smiled.
And for once, i felt like i had nothing to worry about.
All I had to do was lay there with her, and listen to the ocean waves.
DISGRACED.
CHAPTER 9: (part 3)
Aprils P.O.V:
I called Blake's younger sister, Phoebe, to come babysit Sophie, then went to shower.
It seemed like a good idea to take Sam out, and get his mind off Sophie for a while.
When I stepped out of the shower, I brushed my hair.
Then, I stood... naked, staring at myself for a moment in the mirror.
Since I had had Sophie so premature, I didn't have any major stretch marks, but I did see a little bump.
Must be baby-weight. I told myself, I need to work out.
I grabbed dress and threw it on, then blow-dried my hair and put on some makeup.
Done.
I stepped out into the hotel room and heard a knock on the door,
"Come iiiin!" I yelled.
Blakes sister walked in. She was about 16, and had soft brown eyes and dark brown hair. She smiled shyly at me.
"I'm Phoebe. Nice to meet you."
I smiled back at her, and handed her a list of what Sophie would need to sleep properly.
"We'll be back before 1O, okay? And Kris and Blake should be back after dinner."
She nodded and I grabbed my purse off the couch, then peeked out the window.
Sam was waiting for me in the parking lot.
"bye! If you have any problems call me!" I told her, then shut the door behind me.
CHAPTER 9: (part 3)
Aprils P.O.V:
I called Blake's younger sister, Phoebe, to come babysit Sophie, then went to shower.
It seemed like a good idea to take Sam out, and get his mind off Sophie for a while.
When I stepped out of the shower, I brushed my hair.
Then, I stood... naked, staring at myself for a moment in the mirror.
Since I had had Sophie so premature, I didn't have any major stretch marks, but I did see a little bump.
Must be baby-weight. I told myself, I need to work out.
I grabbed dress and threw it on, then blow-dried my hair and put on some makeup.
Done.
I stepped out into the hotel room and heard a knock on the door,
"Come iiiin!" I yelled.
Blakes sister walked in. She was about 16, and had soft brown eyes and dark brown hair. She smiled shyly at me.
"I'm Phoebe. Nice to meet you."
I smiled back at her, and handed her a list of what Sophie would need to sleep properly.
"We'll be back before 1O, okay? And Kris and Blake should be back after dinner."
She nodded and I grabbed my purse off the couch, then peeked out the window.
Sam was waiting for me in the parking lot.
"bye! If you have any problems call me!" I told her, then shut the door behind me.
DISGRACED.
CHAPTER 9: (part 2)
Sams P.O.V:
A week had passed since the accident.
It was still hard for me to deal with what had happened,
especially since bandages which concealed Sophie's healing scar were still on her.
but April was helping me through it,
and some of her friends from LA had driven out to stay with us for a while.
"We're baaaaaaaaccckkkk!" A blatantly flamboyant voice rang from the other room.
"Sam?" April called me.
I stood up and jogged into the other room.
Neon pink hair greeted me as Blake dumped a bag of groceries into my arms.
"Thanks boo." He winked, and turned back to April.
April smiled and turned to face me.
"Wheres Sophie girl?"
"Asleep in the other room." I replied.
Blake took out his phone, which was loudly ringing dubstep.
He squeaked in a girlish manner and whispered something into Aprils ear which made her smile.
"OMGEE. I'll be back at likkeeeee... 1Oish?" He said, then practically skipped out the door.
"So how was shopping?" I asked, leaning back against the table.
"It was actually the most fun ive had in a while," She laughed, "It kinda brought me back to the care-free days of highschool."
She looked up at me, and bit her lip.
"You know Sam. I think we both need to let loose, and have some fun."
She walked towards me, and I wrapped my arms around her waist.
"Lets go to a club."
CHAPTER 9: (part 2)
Sams P.O.V:
A week had passed since the accident.
It was still hard for me to deal with what had happened,
especially since bandages which concealed Sophie's healing scar were still on her.
but April was helping me through it,
and some of her friends from LA had driven out to stay with us for a while.
"We're baaaaaaaaccckkkk!" A blatantly flamboyant voice rang from the other room.
"Sam?" April called me.
I stood up and jogged into the other room.
Neon pink hair greeted me as Blake dumped a bag of groceries into my arms.
"Thanks boo." He winked, and turned back to April.
April smiled and turned to face me.
"Wheres Sophie girl?"
"Asleep in the other room." I replied.
Blake took out his phone, which was loudly ringing dubstep.
He squeaked in a girlish manner and whispered something into Aprils ear which made her smile.
"OMGEE. I'll be back at likkeeeee... 1Oish?" He said, then practically skipped out the door.
"So how was shopping?" I asked, leaning back against the table.
"It was actually the most fun ive had in a while," She laughed, "It kinda brought me back to the care-free days of highschool."
She looked up at me, and bit her lip.
"You know Sam. I think we both need to let loose, and have some fun."
She walked towards me, and I wrapped my arms around her waist.
"Lets go to a club."
DISGRACED.
CHAPTER 9:
Aprils P.O.V:
"Sam?" I whispered, as he covered his face with his hand and turned his back to our daughter.
His shoulders shook, and I could tell he was crying.
"Its okay, shes okay, its not your fault," I said, pushing my wheelchair over to him.
My own lips trembled as I watched him break down.
I had never seen him like this before. I had never seen him so completely devastated.
I felt someone's hand on my shoulder, and I looked up to see Alex standing over me.
No.
"No." I said, pushing myself away from him. "I don't want you here."
He looked taken aback. "I'm just trying to help-"
"No." I said more sternly. "Leave."
Sam turned around and Alex immediately backed off.
"I'll see you later." He said, and left the hospital.
I turned my attention back to Sam, whose eyes were red and watery.
He looked back into the room where Sophie was sleeping and exhaled sharply.
The door next to us suddenly swung open and the doctor walked out.
"Sorry-" Sam said quickly, "I'm Sophie's father. Is she okay?"
The doctor sighed and furrowed his eyebrows.
"It depends how you define 'okay'. Mentally, shes fine. she has no brain damage, and her nerves are working fine. And physically, she is capable of doing anything any other child can do. Its just her appearance I'm worried about. See, when the crash happened, it seems like a shard of glass came down and cut your daughters face-"
A shaky breath came out of my mouth.
"She will have a scar. now usually i wouldn't say having a scar is that bad compared to what could have happened to her, but this ones big. it stretches from her right ear to her chin. I'm so sorry we cant do anything for this. If theres anything I can help you with, don't hesitate to ask for me at the front desk." The doctor nodded curtly and walked off.
CHAPTER 9:
Aprils P.O.V:
"Sam?" I whispered, as he covered his face with his hand and turned his back to our daughter.
His shoulders shook, and I could tell he was crying.
"Its okay, shes okay, its not your fault," I said, pushing my wheelchair over to him.
My own lips trembled as I watched him break down.
I had never seen him like this before. I had never seen him so completely devastated.
I felt someone's hand on my shoulder, and I looked up to see Alex standing over me.
No.
"No." I said, pushing myself away from him. "I don't want you here."
He looked taken aback. "I'm just trying to help-"
"No." I said more sternly. "Leave."
Sam turned around and Alex immediately backed off.
"I'll see you later." He said, and left the hospital.
I turned my attention back to Sam, whose eyes were red and watery.
He looked back into the room where Sophie was sleeping and exhaled sharply.
The door next to us suddenly swung open and the doctor walked out.
"Sorry-" Sam said quickly, "I'm Sophie's father. Is she okay?"
The doctor sighed and furrowed his eyebrows.
"It depends how you define 'okay'. Mentally, shes fine. she has no brain damage, and her nerves are working fine. And physically, she is capable of doing anything any other child can do. Its just her appearance I'm worried about. See, when the crash happened, it seems like a shard of glass came down and cut your daughters face-"
A shaky breath came out of my mouth.
"She will have a scar. now usually i wouldn't say having a scar is that bad compared to what could have happened to her, but this ones big. it stretches from her right ear to her chin. I'm so sorry we cant do anything for this. If theres anything I can help you with, don't hesitate to ask for me at the front desk." The doctor nodded curtly and walked off.
DISGRACED.
CHAPTER 8: (part 5)
Sams P.O.V:
My face was blank,
and honestly, my mind was blank too. it was weird to be that calm when everything around me was practically collapsing. but there i was, running with April into the emergency room with our little whimpering baby in her arms, and the man i hated most running behind us.
I burst open the emergency room door and a nurse saw our condition.
She yelled something, and pulled a stretcher out, lying Sophie on it. She brought out two more and lied April on one.
"Get on the stretcher sir," She demanded, and I shook my head.
"I need to go with my daughter, you don't understand, this is all my fault-" I protested.
The woman shook her head and a male nurse injected me with some kind of anesthesia.
"No!" I yelled, "You can't just do that! I have to go with my daughter!" I yelled.
"Sir, you're bleeding excessively, we need to ..."
her voice faded out as I was knocked out by the drugs.
...
When I woke back up, the quiet beep of a heart-monitor reminded me where i was.
I sat up and felt my side ache massively. Lifting up my shirt, I saw the stitches which ran from my hip up to my shoulder.
Sophie. April.
I stood up, ignoring the sting of pain from the fresh stitches, and walked out into the hallway.
"Sam?" I heard April whisper.
I whipped around and saw her sitting in a wheelchair. She had one black eye, and it looked like one of her ankles was in a cast.
Alex was standing behind her.
I ran over to her as fast as I could.
"Shhh." she whispered, bringing her finger to her lips before I could say anything.
She pointed to the room she was next to and I saw Sophie sleeping in a baby-sized hospital bed. She had bandages wrapped around her face and arm.
My body shook. I was disgusted. I was disgusted with myself, that I had let something like this happen to her.
I couldn't even look at her.
CHAPTER 8: (part 5)
Sams P.O.V:
My face was blank,
and honestly, my mind was blank too. it was weird to be that calm when everything around me was practically collapsing. but there i was, running with April into the emergency room with our little whimpering baby in her arms, and the man i hated most running behind us.
I burst open the emergency room door and a nurse saw our condition.
She yelled something, and pulled a stretcher out, lying Sophie on it. She brought out two more and lied April on one.
"Get on the stretcher sir," She demanded, and I shook my head.
"I need to go with my daughter, you don't understand, this is all my fault-" I protested.
The woman shook her head and a male nurse injected me with some kind of anesthesia.
"No!" I yelled, "You can't just do that! I have to go with my daughter!" I yelled.
"Sir, you're bleeding excessively, we need to ..."
her voice faded out as I was knocked out by the drugs.
...
When I woke back up, the quiet beep of a heart-monitor reminded me where i was.
I sat up and felt my side ache massively. Lifting up my shirt, I saw the stitches which ran from my hip up to my shoulder.
Sophie. April.
I stood up, ignoring the sting of pain from the fresh stitches, and walked out into the hallway.
"Sam?" I heard April whisper.
I whipped around and saw her sitting in a wheelchair. She had one black eye, and it looked like one of her ankles was in a cast.
Alex was standing behind her.
I ran over to her as fast as I could.
"Shhh." she whispered, bringing her finger to her lips before I could say anything.
She pointed to the room she was next to and I saw Sophie sleeping in a baby-sized hospital bed. She had bandages wrapped around her face and arm.
My body shook. I was disgusted. I was disgusted with myself, that I had let something like this happen to her.
I couldn't even look at her.