Wanna go to the dance with
me?
sure.. I didnt
think you would want to go to something like
that...
Well I didnt want to at
first but I kinda feel like I owe it to you for being a dick,
that and I REALLY wanna dates chu :)
<3
awww :) so are you
going to stick to this then?
yes. I'm getting my
suit this weekend.
ok :) because if I
get a dress for nothing then you're dead :D
and you're off to a good start
:)
YAYness!
I know no one cares, but I just have to say,
I hate the way you look at me with disgust and disdain. I
hate the way no one talks to me and no one really cares, I hate
the way under my eyes look, filled with tiredness and fear. I
hate feeling like I'm unwanted by people, why can't I
have one person who makes me feel like I am needed in their life?
I hate how she had to leave me before I could really see just how
amazing she was to me, and appreciate it fully. I hate the way I
have no one to rely on. I hate the way you can do that to me, but
I can't do it back. I am sick of being the one who has to
tip-toe on egg shells, I want to be the one who can speak their
mind. Most of all I hate crying about everything basically every
night. I shouldn't have to cry about things that others take
for granted. I know no one cares, and no one reads these, I just
thought I'd get it out there. Maybe I'll
heal.
I
Hate The Way I
Look,
when I look at myself I want to cry
because I hate what I see. Shopping just makes me lose any
confidence that I might have had. My legs are
disgusting with broken vessels, the big mole on
my arm makes me stay away from wearing short sleeves and
the big fat roll on my stomach prevents me from
wearing tank tops. The dark purple bags under my eyes
make a wonderful addition to my face along with the
hair that grows there that has to be plucked and
shaved.
It's almost not worth it to
try.