hello there gorgeous.<3 if you are reading this then you've stumbled across my witty profile.<3 so, WELCOME!(: well i guess i should introduce myself. i'm Jennifer, but everyone calls me Jenn..which ever you prefer! i'm short.(: 5 ft 1 1/2 inches, but i like being short! well i'm a cheerleader, cheer is my life.<3 i love music, of all types! I love my friends, they mean the world to me.<3 i look forward to hugging lauren (xxnevershoutnever) everyday.<3 Confessions_of_a_cutter is my inspiration.<3
Love is Louder than the Pressure to be Perfect.<3
oh&& i guess i should mention..i cut. i burn. i scratch. i've attempted suicide more times than i can count, but i never succeed. something in my mind always stops me from succeeding. i self harmed for 2 years straight, every single day, atleast once every hour. this year i've been getting better. i don't self harm nearly as much as i used to. don't get me wrong, i still self harm. but i'm slowly getting better.
Major Depression: | Very High |
Dysthymia: | High-Moderate |
Bipolar Disorder: | Slight |
Cyclothymia: | High-Moderate |
Seasonal Affective Disorder: | Slight-Moderate |
Postpartum Depression: | N/A |
Take the Depression Test |
You wouldnt notice if
someone really wanted to die or not.
You wouldnt notice that when you
look away from them they stop smiling. You dont notice the way
they become more controlled. Their laugh is controlled, Their
smile even smaller, fake. Maybe every once in awhile you will
catch them with this sad distant look in their eyes. You will
notice how they seem to just stare into nothing, like their
alone and completley gone. You probably won't notice the
way the slowly start to distant themselves, they don't say
as much. They stop telling you about themselves. Maybe they
make up excuses saying "Sorry I'am busy" or
"No I'am a little tired" and you will believe
them. You will make a joke that tears them, but they will laugh
it off. Every time. You may say something on accident
"maybe you should kill yourself" and they will laugh
that off but inside they feel like you actually meant it. No
matter what, thats what they think. Maybe if you paid more
attention. Would you notice how their skin became more covered
up? They're wearing jackets when its clearly hot out.
Their hands are constantly pulling the sleeves down more,
trying to cover up their fingers to. They just dont want to be
seen, but its so subtle. Maybe you compliment them, their
answers become shorter. Just a simple "Thanks". Of
course they dont believe it, they think their all lies. Even
though they say it with a smile on their face, watch out for
that empty look in their eyes. Just pay attention to them.
It's nearly impossible to spot someone with self-hate,
unless you're one of them.
But just never look
away.