jessekaa_95

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Joined: August 28, 2009
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the name is jessica.
I am who I am, 
s#!& happens,
life sucks then we die.
you either accept it or deny it,
i accept it, 
so f@#$ it
YOLO!
 
 

Quotes by jessekaa_95

my life is falling apart, i honestly don't care if you read this or no, i'm not making it pretty for you to fave and what not, i just really need someone to actually know me.. the real me.
I really don't have any true friends, they all use me. I've only had one true bestfriend in my entire life, alyssa hope. we don't really talk anymore because we moved away and stoppped talking until recently.  i have some major trust issues, i can't ever get close enough to people before i start pushing them away. it's just always been like that, too many people come in to my life and have never stayed long enough and it wasn't my choice so by me pushing people away i guess i feel like i can finally control my life. buuuut anyways, my  'bestfriend' we don't talk, i text her to hang out, nothing. i call her, she ignors my calls. i see her in school and she put on a fake smile and says hi and that shes sorry she didn't text me back. which i know is all bullcrap. i really miss having my bestfriend, the old allie. the one that used to stay up all night laughing with me. the one i met in fourth grade. the one that doesn't ditch me to go to alexis' for the weekend. i need a bestfriend too, one that i can have. i'm tired of sharing her. i put in my headphones and  just say that i hate people and that im tired, i'm tired of 'being tired' i'm so depressed, it's not just allie, it's not ever being good enough to do anything, i no good at the sports i like, i can't get good grades, it's like everything i do is never good enough for anyone, not even me. i beat myself up over the littlest things.. but no one would know cause i just play it off like it's nothing.. ohhh i failed that test whatever. but it's eating away at me, i don't know how much longer i can take it. i've thought about suicide, i know deep down i could never do it, i would never be able to leave my little sister with that burden, she is the only reason i know i would never ever do it. I could just move away to my dad's no one knows me there, start over maybe have a better life? but what would that do for me or Ashlee, i'd just be runnign away and she'd continue to grow up confused. BUT i guess i'll live. Today is my 17th birthday, my one and true friend alyssa called me to wish me a happy birthday.. i haven't talked to her in years but she called at midnight, i can tell you right now she is going to be the one that will let me cry on her shoulder, she's comming over to celebrate my birthday with my family. Allie probably doesn't even remember it's my birthday, i doubt i'll get a facebook happy birthday from her, ohhh yeah i deleted her a week ago and she stilll hasn't noticed.. well, F@#! her, i know who i can reliy on when i need someone and it's not her, if you did read this thanks, it's a lot i know and it's pretty much me just rambeling on and on, but i can't keep it botteled up any more, <3
 Life sucks, then you die.
just accept it .
YOLO
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Guys;
    Will always let you down   
       Always.
Today in English we had an assignmen...
What is love?
I haven't been able to figure it out since the day you broke my heart. I hope
that one day just maybe I'll be able to know what
love is again.
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I miss you already. 
I'm sorry I haven't  come around
to say hi lately.
you've been gone for only 
a mere 10 hours. 
it feels like you were just here
a minute ago.
you were like the big brother 
I never had
You were such a goof ball
and we all loved you for that.



good- bye 
Joel 
1/15/11
we'll meet again some day
<3


I only swallow things that I like -Ratatouille

    

    dude,
        what now?


 


people of the male species
are such a disgrace to the
human race


 
  if only you knew,

                
                          how hard it was for
                                  
                                                      
me to see you happy















** i truly do miss you
&& the worst part is that
you weren't even mine 
* the day you left killed me 
it hurt so bad that you didn't
even get to know the truth
Jacob Alan
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AM I THE ONLY ONE,
who's parents used to tell them that when it was storming,
that the angels were bowling.
and the thunder ment they got a strike?