jillster12

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It's hard to forget someone
who gave you so much to remember �
So who is Jillian? To be honest, even I don't know. I'm out of control, irrational, compulsive, and insecure. It's a tough world out there, and if anyone knows that, it's me. I am a grammar nazi, (so I hear...) so beware for a correction or two at times. I'm a freshman in high school and I am 15 years old. Yes, I am a total nerd who has a passion for the game of basketball, plus a commitment to other sports all year long. Basketball has taught me so much about life and myself, and I owe my sanity to the game. Yes, I cry. No, no one sees it. I have one best friend who I feel I can tell everything to. Speaking of friends, who needs 'em. They will stab you in the back then leave. Tough love? I think so. I've learned throughout the years that the only person you can trust is yourself, no matter who else says they will always be there for you. So if you can't tell, people frustrate me. I have always dreamed of that perfect storybook romance that everyone wants so badly but I'm not stupid enough to believe it will ever happen. So yeah, that's my life in a nutshell. Please, talk to me. I have been through it all and than some. Oh, and by the way, if you're still reading this, i fucking love you<3 Stay strong girl!

Quotes by jillster12

Confession #2:

I let people think they know me, but in reality, they have no idea the sh*t i've been through. No one has any idea what kind of things I've dealt with, and I fear no one will ever know.

 

Confession #1:

I pretend like I don't care, that nothing bothers me. Truth is, it's all a lie. I lie about how i feel as a guard because I've been left out, burnt and hurt more times than I can remeber.

 

 

 

Today, the boy of my dreams told me loved me and kissed me in the rain.

LOL   JK,    he   used   two   ee's   in   heey   after   i   texted    him   frst...

 



I ' m  f i n e.


 i am so broken and hurt and pained and sad and angry and a mess and can't take it anymore and breathless and vulnerable and spechless and wiped out and fustreated and done and heartbroken and teary-eyed and anguished and revealed and pitiful and weak and exhausted and put down and done.


Y e a h ,  I ' m  f i n e.

 

strange thing is, i will never forget you

///but you already have forgotten me. </3

i wish you knew what you left me with,


The memories of "us", the hope we both shared, the laughs, the tears, everything. The worst part? I still think of you all the time and I know I never cross your mind.</3


Our teacher today asked us to describe our life story in 6 words or less. Here is what i wrote:


I am going alone to homecoming.</3

 
 


thanks for nothing...

thanks for leading me on,
saying we were inseparable,
thanks for showing me why i still cared  
when. i. was. about. to. give. up. 
thanks for making me laugh  
when. i. was. about. to. cry .


thanks for leaving. 


;(ily