jsz21

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Hello Beautiful ;)
You’ve reached Smiles
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Hi, my names Juliana Marie , but you can call me jay (: and you’ve officially reached my little world (: . This is the world I escape to from my outside life. Leme tell you a little bit about myself  beautiful. Im 16 years old, I blow out the candles on February 17th. Dance is my life, I have passion that shines. The stage is my third home next to my actual house and my dance studio. Im in it to have fun. Ive been dancing since I was about 1 ½ - 2years old. So that makes this my 12th year. I loveeeee writing and making quotes. Im way to into photography and In head over heels with just about everything I do. My mama’s my idol. My brothers are my heros, my dog is my bestfriend… what he listens to me!. And I a great listener and I would love to give advice to anyone who would need it. So my ears are open to you girls and some guys to talk away! Enjoy (:!

Quotes by jsz21

today was large step backwards.

today was the day, where almost 2 years later.
i looked back, 
i looked at the conversations we had.
the way we spoke.
like nothing could ever be gone
like we were gonna be bestfriends forever
like you were gonna get the bestfriend candle at my sweet sixteen
like we were gonna go to prom together cause we were both to stupid to get dates
like we would go to college together 
like we were gonna get married one day if we were both single
i loved you so much
you got a girlfriend
and cut me off
5 years of 24/7 talking
ended
you werent at my sweet sixteen
you werent even invited
you didnt wish me a happy birthday
2 years in a row i waited on you to say something
on my birthday
never wished me luck in anything
never supported me
never said hi to me
youre changed
but im in love with the memory
of you

A Change Of Mind
19
part 4

After spending the entire afternoon with anthony we learned alot about each other. I found out he moved her recently from Massachusets. Hes italian and russian, which he thought was a weird combination and he has a younger sister (Marina) and an older brother (Dominic, 17). His parents are happily married. Hes a sophmore. He told me all about how he really likes sports but snowboardings his one main love. Hes got a dog named Max, his sister has two gold fish which he doesnt really count as a pet. I told him about cheer and basically my whole life. We promised each other we would get together during the break so i could show him some of the places most of the guys hang out, i told him about cole and shawn and he would tell me about his girlfriend he had back home. They promised each other they would try their hardest to stay together long distance but he told me how he wasent so convinced she would be faithful. I told him i would make sure he had friends and wasent alone and that he could talk to me whenever. Before i even know it it was 6:!5 and my phone was ringing, i looked at my phone and saw a text from my mom telling me to start heading home or i would miss dinner. "sorry " i began to laugh "hey man its all good " i continued reading which was just my mom hitting some random keys in her attempt to text, "better see if the buses are still here, sorry this wasent much of a tour" i said making my way over to the steps " i can give you a ride if you want" " are you sure?" he nodded
"it would be my pleasure" i lead him over to my locker and got my jacket out within minutes his mom was here, she pulled up in a black bmw and she was gorgues man, she had long blonde hair cystal blue eyes and a killer body, i could tell where he got his looks from. She made convorsation and asked me my adress the  entire ride home. I could honestly say she was nicer than a majority of my *friends* "well this is it " i said as the slowly proceeded down my block "thank you soo much!" she chuckled and anothy smiled " anytime sweetheart"


i think well take a look into anthonys head next chapter
oh and hey julia (;

A Change Of Mind
19
part 3

I heard footsteps follow behind me. "wait" i heard his voice and turned around "look im sorry but i rea-" he cut me off midsentace putting his hand out, " at least give me you phone" i was heasitent but i handded the boy my phone. After about a minute he threw it back to me,"i added my number and texted myself" i looked at him confused "well you didnt think i would let you go that quickly did you?" i laughed a little bit " i u-uh i gotta go" i turned on my heel and began walking around " i see you around!" he screamed out behind me. i walked over to vinnys car and opened the door to the front seat, i saw donny sitting there so i moved over to the back seat door, which i opened and to my surprise i saw shawn and cole sitting right there. gee how wonderful. i shut the door right away and walked away from the car. i felt a vibrte in my bag and checked it "get another ride jacks" i watched from the curb as my brothers call pulled a way, no way i was gonna sit with cole and shawn in that little space. " so your back?" i looked over to anthony "how about that tour?" and with that we walked off.

sorry its short  but its just a transition chapter

A Change Of Mind
19
part 2

Once science was over i went back into the same thing i do once again Everyday . Kind of used to it by now. My smile always fades right after that period and dont get me wrong I do miss everyone, all of my friends. But the quarters comming to an end anyway and todays the last day before winter break, christmas is in a few days and then im going away to a ski resort in vermont and when i come back ill be all refreshed for a new quarter of difference.My family decided to change it up this year. I went through the day anxious for its end, and like i said before i basically got through the day like a zombie. i knew i wasent taking anynotes i was doodling more than anything to be honest.Once that last bell rang i couldnt have jumped out of my seat quicker. I walked over to my locker just to have it bang right into my head. "You alright there?" i heard a voice that didnt really sound too firmilliar. "uh yeah thanks" i said rubbing my head. i turned to see a dark haired green eyed boy standing before me, but i still couldnt make his face out. "Im Anthony" he said smiling a beautiful perfect smile. "hi im jackie" i said smiling back. i tried to get my books and just walk towards the door but he stoped me. "im new here and i was just wondering if you could show me around or something?" i was curious because whos really that straight forward i mean really this is highschool? i texted vinny telling him i would be a little while and he said i could find another ride home if i didnt get out there right now.  i cringed at the thought of having to take that bus"is something wrong?" i battled myself in my head for a second. it isnt just like a gorgues boy comes up to you and asks you to basically hang out with him everyday. But i would be stupid to expect anything out it. "uh yeah im sorry i actually have to go"
and with that i walked away.


so what do you guys think of the anthony kid so far, a little to aggressive? 

A Change Of Mind
19
part 1

*One Month Later*

Let me catch you up.
Its been around ta month since i really spoke to cody, not that i really cared too much. But i speak to shawn all the time. Some may even consider us bestfriends. I think im starting to fall for him. Hard. Not by choice of course. I go through out my day waiting to talk to him. I dont exactly think he feels the same way about me, considering i have to talk to him first all the time but hey worse things have happened to me. Mandy got back together with her boyfriend but somethings different about her. We arent really talking that much anymore either. cheer still sucks. i hate prentending to be something im not. the girls on that team, man they sure do hate me. and i hate them too. just because im not cheerful and wonderful and have this amazing outlook on life they think im some kind of outcast. i just hope ill last a few more months on this team and pull through, i dont think ill be kicked off, i think im more like quiting. But i gotta keep trying. Jane and i well hm. i dont exactly know how to explain this one. Once mandy started ditching me for her boyfriend jane came around more. But im not completely fond of anyone but shawn right now, I just cant seem to shake this. welcime back.

I woke up feeling funny. i was tired but not lazily tired. everymorning i feel worse and worse. i get these pains in my stomuch but i ignore them. I got ready for school brushed out my hair touched up they parts i thought could be straighter and than got dressed. not to fancy i honestly have no one i need to impress.i threw on a black fitted vneck , a necklace, a pair of jeans and laced up my combat boots. I grabbed all my books and went downstairs. I saw the usual scene i see in the morning, mom making breakfast and vinny eating his brains out. once i grabbed my cheer bag we were out the door. we picked up donny and cody and i didnt say a word, just like everyday, the past month. we got to school and i walked in put all my stuff in my locker and found jane, we walked to out first periods since they were near each other like we did everyday. i went through school like a zombie. execpt for in science. with shawn. then i was legit alert as an infint. "hey jackie" i simply smiled back at the beautiful boy standing before me. i put my books down and we sat next to each other like we do everyday. it was about half through the period when shawn turned back to me "you know you have really beautiful eyes" my stomuch droped. i couldnt believe what i was hearing. "yours are too" i was looking directly into his ice eyes which with time seemed to warm. i liked them. since the second i met him i loved them.

outfit:

http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=44378643



ugh i know what your thinking. and im sorry... AGAIN. i dont even know if this storys good anymore. no one reads it cause i never post lmao. but im not the worlds best writer and recently i had some people write nasty comments i had to delete on my profile. i know im not a professional at this, btu why tear me down for just trying something?

A Change Of Mind
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part 6/6

i woke up the next morning not really knowing what to do with myself. i felt really tired, sop i rolled back over. As soon and my side landed i saw the clock read "10:15" #$%^& CRAP. i sprang out of my bed not remembering mandy was there. i ran to the shower washed my body as quickly as possible than my hair. i got out and threw on an outfit and sneakers that didnt look like i would be trying so hard for shawn.(http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=44376555). I sat at my vanity with mandy watching tv like a robot on my bed. i finished my hair in 45 minutes i did it as best as i could. i applied foundation eye liner mascara you know the drill. i got up to grab some satin drops for my hair from the bathroom. I walked over to mandy who was doing her hair with my flat iron. i pulled out the plug "HA YOU ARENT STAYING HERE!"  she looked at me with confusion "and why is that jackssss" god i hated when she called me that."because i can barley control myself around him and im not loosing him to your looks miss" she took out my foundation and began applying some to her skin "no no. enough!" i ripped the pad out of her hand "OUT!" i pulled her ponytail all the way down my steps and to my kitchen. "MOM TAKE THIS" I felt a tap on my back an i turned to mandy "yes?" her draw was dropped and she was pointing to my right.  i followed my hand to where she had her attention to see shawn and cody standing in my living room. "you have got to be joking right now" i whispered into mandys ear. "can i have cody.....after i get dressed." she whispered back while covering her face with my shirt.. we both giggled nerviously "hey.." cody said waving, i got a simple smile from shawn. we bulted back up the steps. i picked out an old shirt that would fit mandys thin bodyor so i hoped it would at least look like it was supposed to be baggy, she had her own yoga pants with her and a straped bandou. i did her hair while she did her makeup and we were finished in record time.(http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=44377517) i grabed shawns bracelet and we walked down the steps "completely casual" i thought to myself. "i think thats mine" shawn said when i got to the bottom of the steps."yeah.." i handed him the silver chain. "your brother cancelled on us!" cody yelled my way. " oh, well we were just gonna go to the movies if you guys wanna come" mandy butted in."We were?"i was confused. "and you are?"  cody spoke with a flirty tone. shawn gave her the same look he gave me the first time we met. " You can call me mandy"

Thirty-two secrets. Be honest no matter what.

One - Where was your default pic taken? on fb britts, on here living room
Two - Are you being honest? yep
Three-Have you ever lost a close friend? who hasent?
Four - What is your current mood? worried.
Five- Whats your brothers name? joe and phil
Six - Where do you wish you were right now? back in time.
Seven - Have a crazy side? not really...
Eight - Ever had a near death experience? mmm, nah.
Nine - Something you do a lot? fall too hard too fast.
Ten - Angry at anyone? yes.
Eleven - What's the last thing you said to your mom? ill wait for you to get home.
Twelve - When was the last time you cried? today.
Thirteen - Is there anyone you would do anything for? yes
Fourteen - What do you think about when you are falling asleep? lots of stuff
Fifteen-Do you still have pictures of an ex boyfriend/girlfriend?never had one.
Sixteen- What was the last thing in your mouth? sprite
Seventeen- Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? Grandma
Eighteen- What is your favorite song? not sure
Nineteen- What are you doing right now? music <3
Twenty - Where did you get the top you are wearing? brittanys closet.
Twenty-one- Do you enjoy drama? ew.
Twenty two- Describe your life in three words? everything
Twenty three- Who are you thinking of right now? himmmm
Twenty four- What should you be doing right now?  homework..
Twenty five- What are you listening to? swear it like you mean it - go radio
Twenty-six- Does it annoy you when PEOPlEzz TAlk likE THiS? yes,
Twenty seven- Who was the last person who yelled at you? Mom -_-
Twenty eight-Why were you last sad?people are fudged up.
Twenty nine- Do you use smiley faces on the computer? not anymore
Thirty-Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle? lmao yes.
Thirty one- Are you happy with life right now? not really.
Thirty two- Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now?other than myself? yes.

A Change Of Mind
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part 4/6

“its really over now isn’t it..?” I tired to speak slowly not to upset her, as ridiculous as it sounds kyle and mandy have been dating since the 6th grade, it was a cute little relationship they were both too young to have, but as the years went on they stayed together and their feelings got stronger, 3 years that’s a lot for kids our age. “Its cause o-of J-jane!” she managed to choke out. “What’d she do.” I spoke harshly this time. “Ashley and Bridget texted me and told me I needed to get to the fair now. So I got dressed and went, and it took me about 10 minutes to get there, they told me to go to the graivtron and so I did. They were in a full make out session, Jane and Kyle. I asked Ashley how long it was going on for and her a Bridget said for a while and they kept trying to break it up but jane wouldn’t stop, bridget told jane that she was gonna tell me and jane didn’t believe her, little did jane know I was already on the way, I just don’t get it, I thought he was better than this, better than her.” I rubbed her back until the sobs lightened up, i began to feel guilty for not being with her all night and instead with shawn and cole. I began to felt so bad that I broke down and explained everything to the bone of what I had done that night.”Im just so sorry mands, I would have been there for you, you know that, and when jane called me I just couldn’t answer it” “Good for you! You don’t need to protect me 24/7 jacks! You can have fun too!” I laughed and so did she. “well!” I looked at her with curiosity “what?” “DO YOU LIKE HIM?!” I shrugged, to be honest I had no clue, which is exactly what I told her, but instead of comforting me she threw a pillow at my head,I loved mands and the way she could just brighten up, she encouraged me to call shawn, she threw my phone at me and I dialed the number I had on the piece of paper. She walked into the bathroom and I walked over with her to see her washing her face, “but what am I even gonna sa-“ and then he answered. “hello?”

*im on a roooollllll right now :D*

A Change Of Mind
18
part 3

We came to a stop at a red light when vinny lowered the music “ you don’t tell mom a thing okay?” I nodded and looked back out to see the landscape before me. To this day I wonder how vinny got this truck. Its extremely expense yet he doesn’t have a job and he always has money on him, I feel like my family is alllwayss, keeping secrets from me. And im a little tired of everyone around me being so secretive. We pulled up to the drive way and I quickly got out. I opened the door to my house and ran inside. It was around 10:30 so my mom was in her room. I walked in to see her almost asleep “goodnight mom” I kissed her on the head, “I hope you had fun tonight darling” I laughed a little bit “yeah I did, love you” “love you too baby doll” I walked over to my room taking off my boots and putting them in my closet. I set down my bag to take my phone out and out fell a chain bracelet, “crap this is shawns” I remembered taking it off him while I was cleaning his arm off. I quickly called cole, “ hey whats shawns number?” I walked over to my desk to grab some paper and a pen, but when cole responded he sounded irritated. He gave me the number and before saying goodbye hung up. While I was dialing the number my phone rang “Incoming call: Mandy” I pressed accept prepping myself for a long annoying conversation with a million questions about me ditching tonight. “JACKIE IM COMING OVER RIGHT NOW DON’T BOTHER ASKING WHY ILL EXPLAIN WHEN IM THERE OKAY!!” she hung up before I even got a chance to say a word, and since she lived around the corner she got to my house within minutes.I heard my door being knocked on, I ran downstairs and opened the door to see my best friend with skinny mascara lines all down her face, her eyes were swollen and she had tears welled up in her eyes, he long brown hair clipped back into a pony tail, her tan skin glistened under the street lights and her gray eyes were percing, she had her boyfriend Kyle’s sweats on and ran into my arms before I was even able to close the door.I took her in for a long hug, we stayed that way for a while, I didn’t know what happened but I didn’t dare ask. She pulled away “W-we need t-to talk” I simply nodded closing the door behind her and locked up. We walked up to my room and then everything came crashing down.

*at least 2 more parts tonight :D*