For once i broke
down. I broke into a thousand peices that i
couldnt pick up. I felt awful and all because i
found something out. It literally made me sick to
my stomach that i almsot threw up but i didnt because i was in the
shower. I held myself and i cried for over an hour
until i couldnt cry anymore. I felt
awful and there was nothing i
could do to help myself. I wanted to call the one
person that i cry too and could trust, but you know whats
sad...the first thing that popped into my head
when i thought of calling him was "he doesnt care anymore,
dont bother him with your problems, he doesnt care" and
so i didnt and that is why i had to break
down. And then i finally had the balls to
tell him everything and how i felt like i couldnt
and how hes changed and how i felt about
everything, and he just doesnt listen, he
doesnt understand and try to understand and he
didnt take anything seriously.
But i guess its whatever, hopefully something will
teach him before he gets hurt and
loses everything he had worked so hard for before. Maybe he
needs to be hit in the face by realitly like i was to
understand.
sorry just a vent and needed to tell someone....maybe someone will
listen here.....thankyou if you read this, it means alot