i t ' s t
h e s a m e
s
t o r y
d a y
a f
t e
r d a
y //♥
i wake up
in the morning, with you on my mind and try to get ready,
wondering
if you'll think i look pretty or not. i put on my makeup
hoping it'll cover up the
ugly face, that you used to call beautiful. i brush that
hair that you used to run
your fingers through and close those eyes that made you
speechless. i put on
my uniform, making sure it looks perfect for you. i brush
my teeth until they
sparkle for you. i make sure i look as good as i ever
will just for you. i walk to
school, thinking of what to say to you when i see you.
thinking of that hug i get
from you everyday that makes me feel so alive. i think
about that moment where
you see me and smile that brilliant smile, just for me. i
think of the feeling i get
whenever i see you. i think of all the memories we've had
together. the way you
held me, kissed me, said my name. it's irreplaceable.
nothing can ever change my
feelings for you. but then i remember all the pain and
misery we went through.
the arguments and tears. the fright and horror. the
kicking and screaming.
but i still glue on that smile and make my way over to
you, as you spin around
and i see that smile, knowing you'll never be mine again.
knowing that
today
is the
very
last day i'll live
without you
//