justkiddiing

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I wonder whose arms would I run and fall into if I were drunk in a room with everyone I have ever loved.
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I'm really sleepy, but I have some thoughts to share before I go to bed.

1. I think I'm lonely because I go too fast and look in the wrong place at the wrong time. And because I'm scared of letting people close in case we don't click like we thought we would (like we think we do). 

2. I want a pet lizard, but if I get a pet cat as well, will my lizard be safe? I love reptiles. I want a gecko. And a snake. Lots of snakes.

3. I found a word for the squeezing throat and burning corners: touch-starved.

4. I have very, very few friends. And maybe none left in this country.

5. For a very long time, years, I have been the one who writes the heartbreaking stories. When my friends want angst, they come to me. Today, I learned about myself that perhaps I can finally close that chapter. I want more happy stories in my life.

6. I have known some cruel facts for a long time: telling the truths about me = dissowned. And I have long resigned myself (re: tried, failed, struggled) to the idea that I'd never live a full life for it. I am not -- cannot be, not me, not who I am now -- selfish enough to throw away my family for that. But I'm tryhing to look at it in a gentler light. I'm trying to treat myself like I would something I loved, rather than something heavy I have been forced to carry.

7. Nobody really talks to me. Not really. Or at least, very few people; not many people reach out to me. I think they care, but I don't think they care that much. Not enough that it matters how I'm doing if I'm not right in front of them... I would like to change that, somehow.

8. I want my gender to not matter to me.

Okay. Goodnight. xo






 

So I put you on pause when deep down I knew I should have hit stop. Now I'm pressing rewind whenever I get the chance.
I have already lost touch
          with a couple of people 
                                  I used to be



 







 



 




 


 

 

 
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-JOAN DIDION
 
stop looking for things to mess up. just because you're used to tragedy, does not mean it always needs to be present in your life for you to feel comfortable.

happiness is
good and does not always indicate something bad is waiting to happen.


happiness simply means happiness.
 

showers don't sting anymore but that doesn't mean i'm alright yet

YOU SAY YOU'RE "DEPRESSED" - ALL I SEE IS RESILIENCE. YOU ARE ALLOWED TO FEEL MESSED UP AND INSIDE OUT. IT DOESN'T MEAN YOU'RE DEFECTIVE - IT JUST MEANS YOU'RE HUMAN 

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I WILL STAY GENTLE NO MATTER WHAT I ENDURE. I AM SO MUCH MORE.

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THE ONLY THING I KNOW IS THIS: I AM FULL OF WOUNDS AND STILL STANDING ON MY FEET. 

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