From your quotes that I've read I don't think you will never get married. I personally think you are really strong for going through what you have and are going through. I think you will find love. Maybe not now but later in life. Someone will see just how strong you've been and and how beautiful you are and see how lovable you really are.
Even though you say that you're "sorry" doesn't mean you will ever be forgiven. What you said to us was just plain cruel and horrible. Do you know how bad self-esteem issues I already have without someone like you coming and pointing out all my flaws that I already am fully aware of? You do not deserve a second chance or deserve to be forgiven. I still remember everything you said to me. That's how bad it was. And the fact that you thought that everything you were doing and saying was funny makes me truly sick. If you think that is even remotely funny then you need to get a reality check. For a human being to sit there and basically harass someone for over a month is sick. You should really watch what you say to people because you don't know how bad that could affect someone. They could be going through things in their lives and you might not know it and by you saying stuff like that could set them over the edge. They could do something drastic because of it. I don't care how much you apologize you will never be forgiven or given a second chance. What you did is just flat out wrong and horrible to do to another human being.
What is wrong with you? I mean seriously. If you think this is okay or funny then you have major issues and need some help. Gays, bisexuals, lesbians, and any other type of sexuality have the same right straight people do. To choose who they love. Nothing is wrong with that, at all. Love is love. You need to grow up and stop being such a judgemental .