♥Dreamer*

Status: My nightmares are better than my reality.
Joined: August 16, 2011
Last Seen: 7 years
Birthday: November 18
user id: 208541
Location: My room.. where else do I go?
Gender: F
 




Let me love you and I will love you



until you learn to love yourself

 
 



 

 
/Crushin' n' blushin'/




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Quotes by ♥Dreamer*




I'd trade all my tomorrows for just one yesterday

 
Tick tock hear the clock countdown,
wish the minute hand could be rewound.
So much to do and so much I need to say.
Will tomorrow be too late?
 
Tears don't always dry.
I believe too much, and think too little.
Dear You,

My mind is a scary place. Full of ideas and thoughts that anyone would cry if they knew. I was getting so much better. But then you left... It was all my faulf though. I was 'too' dependant on you. I didn't mean for it to sound like that. I just finaaly had someone who cared about me and listened to me. You thought I always came to you maybe, like I didn't talk to anyone else, but maybe  I just didn't talk about it. Maybe I felt like no one cared, and mayeb I still feel like that. Maybe I miss you, but you're probably a lot happier with me. I guess I was your game for a while, but like every gamer there's always a new game out so you forget about your old one. I guess it's fine. Like I said,  I don't depend on you. I just liked having someone who cared, but now I'm alone. Alone and abandoned is how I've felt fcor a week. I thought I'd be over it by now, but I guess I was wrong. I loved you, and I'd do anything for you. I still would. That's what I hate. Whenever, if ever, you want to come back I will be right there for you. Acting like nothing ever happened because I want to spend the rest of my life with you, forever and always. What happened to that? We talked about a future, a real one.  But now you're probably with someone else, you're probably happier. Why would you need me? I'm just a useless girl who is in love with you. I never knew what love was until I met you. You showed me people do care, but then you showed me how poeple can leave like it's nothing. Four monthsfealt like four years. I was happier, everyone could tell. I was happy becuase you always listened to me, I always listened to you even though you almost never wanted to talk about anything that was wrong. I guess I talked too much to you about my issues.
You say you felt like my life depened on you, like you were the only reason I didn't cut or kill myself. The truth is you weren't. Yeah you were a big help, but the reason I didn't do that was becuase things were going good for me. If you felt like that why wouldn't you tell me. Your excuse was you knew I needed support, but what I really needed was the truth. People all my life have lied to my face to 'help' me. I thought you and I promised no more secrets long ago? Whatever happened to that? I've worked my a.ss off trying to keep all the promises I made to you, not cutting, trying to be better with people, telling t=you the truth. Every single one I've tried. Did you ever try to keep them? Did I ever mean the world to you? I thought I did, you acted like I did you've even said I did. But you showed me it's easy for you to hide stuff. I hate showing people the real me, the things deep insidemy soul. I showed you ever bit of me, the good and bad. I told you everything. Did you? You would never  tell me what was wrong with you. Ever. Do you know how painful it is to see the person who means everything to you be sad and not tell you? I'd always ask what was wrong, you'd never tell no matter how much I asked. You just got mad that I wouldn't stop when you asked me to. I wouldn't stop because I  know what it's like to keep everything inside, I've done it for fourteen years straight, and I want to help you. But you'd make me tell you what was wrong me with me. You never would let me just brush it off. How the he.ll is that fair? I have so much more to day, but how do I even say it. I guess I'll write to you again sometime.
Now's your time to run for cover.
I never thought I'd feel like this....


Do you ever just sit there feeling hollow inside?
The this monster comes alive inside you .
There is this tsunami of hurt and pain like no other.
It floods out of your eyes.
You can't keep from feelings like it's all your fault.
You've held it in and then you finally crack.



 


Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'll be the one, if you want me to
Anywhere I would've followed you


 
 

If you're goin' through he.ll keep on going
Don't slow down if you're scared don't show it
You might get out before the devil even knows you're there
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