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Journal
05.19.10
8:52PM
Dear Journal,
I kind of just can't take it anymore. My friends picked their favourites, and I'm not one of them. I' was so sad today when I got home because I miss the way things used to be with me ad the boy...and him, dreadful, dreadful him,...He talked to one of my best friends because his little brother wanted to talk to her brother. I simply hate it, and tomorrow I can't wake up early, not care how I look, and just go with the flow. Because everything I do is not enough. Nothing is. His expectations are so high, I can't be them. My best friend can. So...
I give up. Everyone wins.
-me.




04.13.10
7:28AM
Dear Journal,
I'm waiting for my dad to get home, I'm late for school. Maybe I'll see him, but that's a 99.99% "You Will Not See Him." Bleh.
I am having better days then I did, I thank God for everything. I've made new friends, I've gotten closer with three of my friends, and everything is going well.
Now I'm just afraid for that terrible drop I will have, off this beautiful mountain, where everything is ...almost perfect.
From, Me.


04.07.10

9:00PM
Dear Journal,
You know it's pretty sad when you keep wishing you are someone else. And that's what I think. I noticed today, I'm not a very good person. I don't work on new friendships very well, but I'm trying. I really am. It's so hard for me, I'm a shy girl. I can't believe how I got so pissed off this morning in first period at my friend. It shocks me; really. Like I wished I didn't have so many classes with her. But I felt like she was rubbing it in my face she hangs out with her ex-crush now. I don't know, It just really pissed me off. And then she started commenting on my shorts, and said she was prettier and I couldn't take it. If it wasn't for my other friend, or my stupid stupid emotions, I would have got up and moved somewhere else that morning. Second period, I got free and let myself calm down. I saw him again, I do a lot! Today he was all "lookey-starrey". I was wearing shorts today. HAHAHA. Oh dear. So right now I'm jamming out to Taylor Swift ♥ She's the only artist I can listen to without thinking of someone, only hear the lyrics. Isn't that weird? It probably is. XD
Anywho, remember my friend who has trouble...He went to therapy today, and they gave him some type of pills. I didn't hear much, but he's going to tell me everything later...Gosh, I really want to give him a hug. I do ):  He was just fine this whole week,  on saturday we texted until 2:40 in the morning, only cause I fell asleep after my last text. We could have gone all night...I can't believe it.
  Well, I'm going to write my new story now...so see ya.
From, Me.

 

04.07.10
8:46PM
Dear Boy;
You were quite nice today. I know you don't have the same feelings for me...I knew it today. I'll survive, but you're always going to have a place in my heart, for being the first boy to try to open me up. I failed  at doing so, and I wonder what would have happened if I already felt comfortable around you. I'm starting to now, because I'm sick of being quiet. I bet you're sick of me. It's okay. I understand. I'm too hard to live with, it happens.
From, Me.


04.05.10
5:50PM
Dear Him,
Why do you think you're awesome. I'm starting to wonder why I like you, not even in a good way. You throw shit at my guy friend. Like what the fuck. Get better friends, because I know you're going to change from a shy, sweet boy, to a jackass, pothead just like you're best friend is. Oh, and if you think the way you acted today was okay?
Then fuck you. I hate you.

From, Me.



04.02.10
2:19AM
Dear  Him,
Sorry my birthday thing is late...I wrote a whole paragraph for you...But you'll never find it..
Love Me.

03.30.10
11:06PM
Dear Reader,
I'm getting so scared these days. He's  so depressed..He's cutting himself. I'm so scared. I pray every night for him. He might die, and I wouldn't be able to take it. He wanted to kill himself today, I almost cried. I stopped him. He's getting therapy for his panic attacks on Thursday. He needs it...I wish I could be there for him. He needs someone there...He's told me everything...His parents are never home...No one talks to him, but me...I don't know what to do, I'm just scared. What if he decides to go, when I'm sleeping? Or with my friends? I can never leave him. I text him everyday now, even if I'm with friends. I need to talk to him. He might do something crazy if he has no one to talk to, or have something to do. I'm so scared...I can't sleep well anymore. I used to, but now I can't. I just can't. He's ALWAYS on my  mind now. I think I'm going to start  texting him during school. I can't leave him...He's been through so much...God...Dear Lord...His guardian angel...Anyone in heaven...Please...Help him...I can be on hold for now...He needs help...And I ask you, anybody...Help  him. Please, I beg of you...
Love, Me.

03.30.10
1:55AM
Dear Reader,
Yep, not him. I have nothing to say, but only write about my day. I went to my friends house. I went to the mall. I saw a lot of hot guys, but then remembering myself and my age, I would never get someone like them. It's impossible. So, now I'm just on twitter, tweeting. I'm bored. I was hoping to see him at the mall today, but it didn't happen. Gar.
Love, Me.


03.28.10
9:34AM
Dear Him,
You like being in my dreams? Yeah? Kay. But I swear, next monday if you keep ignoring me, I'm done with you.
Love, Me.

03.27.10
Dear Him,
Oh my, you were in my dream last night. But  you were still shy in it. As usual. In my dream, you saw me, and walked away from me. Just like you did yesterday. I don't even know what we were doing...Answering questions? Singing a song? I don't remember. But I remember you were there.
Love, Me.

3.26.10
Dear Him,
I'm so sad. I'm not going to see you for a full week and a day. But you know, i still don't know why I like you. But, on the way to play after school, I saw you down the hall, and you walked away and hid. Did I do something? Because, I'm so confused now. 2 weeks ago, I REALLY thought you liked me. But I guess...I was wrong.
Love, Me.



3.25.10

Dear Him
,

You ignored me today too. I'm seriously getting depressed, and here you are, ditching me, after two lousy weeks. That's all I seriously need now, to be even more depressed as summer comes along.Bad enough I'm losing friends, but now I've lost you too..
Love, Me
.


3.25.10
Dear BOY,
I wasn't at school the other
day because I didn't feel good.
Don't give me attitude, and then
go talk to one of the girls who
spreaded us apart.
Why do you think I always ignore
you now. You're always talking
to her, and when you talk to me,
I'm really not in the mood.
Don't ask me why I'm so quiet,
Don't start trying to be nice after
being a douche, and you know
I'm pretty much getting sick of you.
You no longer make me feel special.

Love, Me.

3.24.10

Dear Him,
Didn't bother going to school wonder how that was for you.
Love, Me.

3.19.10
Dear Him;
Something is going on. You're friends didn't stare at me down the hall for nothing.
Love, Me.

3.17.10
Dear Him,
Starring at me, when I enter your quiet study...Made me shaky when I left
.
Love, Me.

3.16.10
Dear Him,
You caught me commenting on a darn book with my friends. Oh, how dorky that was.
Love, Me.

3.12.10
Dear Him.
"Just do it, do it now!" You backed up. Walked behind me and my friends, but stopped. Later thatday, your friend says hello to me. What's going on?
Love, Me
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Quote:

Don't live by other people's rules, make your own. You're your own person, do not follow. Stand out in the crowd. It may seem hard, but it's worth being different in the end.

 
Feeling
04.05.10
5:54PM
Listening  to random music, thinking about him, and becoming pissed off more and more. Then I think of  boy and start to feel depressed. Bleh. What a nice day back to school after spring break....

03.30.10
11:13PM
My text message, I hope it went through.


03.30.10
1:59AM
I'm tired and listening to music.

03.28.10
It's the kind of mood when you're like "I just want to talk to him...." mood. Going to church soon, so maybe my spirit will be lifted.

03.27.10

I'm feeling a little bit better today. I almost cried again this morning, I was still getting over the other night. My mom yellled at me, because I had to clean my room, and I sat at my desk, head in hands, about to cry. I felt it coming. But I stopped myself. I looked at my dog, and the feeling went away. Without my dog, even though she doesn't adore me like I adore her, she's the one who saved me this morning....I just wish she would know that...

03.26.10
i was crying. i think, it was more the fact that i was facing I'm becoming mentally depressed...I even took a test for it, and it said I was clincially depressed...I'm breaking inside...I need a way out...



 
 
Random♥Things

i'm going crazy, for his love.
songs that pop on, make me think of him.
i go out of my way, to see you.
i hate most of his guy friends.

i write all over my converse.
they are breaking inside.
but on the outside, it looks a little dirty, but wearable.

About me!

I'm only thirteen years old.
I think we've established this, already.
But...don't be yelling at me, or back talking to me
that "I'm too young" too write about such things.


 
DRAMA. Never ends.
  LOVE. Does not have an age.
  FOREVER. Is usually a lie.
 FRIENDSHIPS.
Has an expiration

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H a p p y//B i r t h d a y//T o //Y o u
you may not know I am saying this to you and you're probably smiling that you're finally fourteen already. You're going to be spending your day with your ex-girlfriend, which I find totally unfair. She broke your heart and you still have to spend this special day, with her. I went to my aunt's house today. I learned I'm good with little babies. I make the little boys smile and laugh, making them play hide-and-seek with me. I'm good with little girls, because they like to ramble on and on about things that happened months ago and I listen to every word they say. Will you ever know this? No. Why? You never wanted to get to know me. If you did have the urge to, I would give you this long paragraph about how special you are. How would I? Why don't I just show you what I mean. When I found out you have green eyes, I completely melted inside. There is not one boy in our grade with green eyes, and you're the first one. I love green eyes with a passion. Step one complete. When I see you down the hall, coming closer to me, I lose my train of thought and make no sense when I talk to my friends. I make myself sound like I am mad at them, sad about something, or just stupid. I hate myself later for it. I can't even keep my eyes off of you, no matter how hard I try. You became so much more attractive, I can't stand it. Is it normal for someone to have these many good looks? I surely don't think so. Step two complete. You know when you catch me starring at you, and you try to keep our glance at each other? Or when I catch you looking at me and I turn away? Don't ever think about it in a bad way. Truth is, I can't look at you for more then two seconds without drooling. You're gorgeous honey. You're the type I can't stand to look at because it burns me. Remember that time I almost rammed into you? Well I kind of did...But not really badly. But still. Your hand brushed against my arm, and after I thought I was going to die of shaking so hard. You smelled amazing, I wanted to hug you and just smell you. Breathe in whatever you put on that morning. I wanted it on me, so I could smell it later. Sounds crazy, I know.Remember that time I came into your study hall, and almost again, bumped right into you? That whole time when you were looking at me, I was shaking. I may have been controlling my voice well, but I was shaking inside. I always shake when you're around. I get so nervous...I don't know why. Step three complete. I'm good friends with one of your best friends.You know,he asks a lot of questions so all that is going through my mind is "Does he tell him my favourite music? Does he tell him about my life?Does he tell him about my grades?" I thought I was falling for you best friend, but I was really falling for you, even harder. Wouldn't it be weird if you found this? Ha, I'd laugh. That would be good for you. Anyway, you see this long paragraph?All for you.If you got to knew me, it would be longer.And stop cutting your hair...It looks better long.
Hope You Had An Awesome Day//Sorry It's 2 Hours Late.



*yes. his birthday is on April Fools Day. AKA April 1st.
she's better off everyday
 
she's standing in the pouring rain
thinking of you in everyway
the rain hides the tears she sheds
the memories over flood her head
her head is hurting more then ever
but will you ever understand?
  she can't forget
you

no matter how hard she tries
    itowantdrowntomyscreampain
loving you isn't what i call drama-free
but it's why i keep holding on
but is it enough to love me?
 





[highlight and click the ♥]

i love restarting, refreshing with everything.
only if life has a reset button...
i'd be damned of how many times i'd press it.

 
we had our special nicknames
we had a handshake
we'd laugh and smile
making everyone want to be us

now//

it's like nothing ever happened
and i'd do anything to go
back to
square one

 
ilikeyou,
boy; you don't got nothing to prove to me.
                          i know that times have been rough
       for the both, of! us
    but i'll pray...
 for a change.
                           you see this world has lot
       to offer
                       but in time it will go dark
                                               and if this love is what we say it is,
                        i'm sure we will go far
                                                   and with a boy as sweet as you
,

there's not much else i can do,
b u t f a l l f o r y o u.
 ♥


 
i'm silently
      depressed
these days.
no one notices
   no one cares.
i'm just an outsider
*
~`-~'~`-~'~`-~'~`-~*
i'm trying my best
    to be more happy
be more outgoing
but it's all just

abiglie.

didn't know what catergory to
put this in...don't yell at me...



This is beautiful! Try not to cry...

Sally jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: "How is my little boy? Is he going to be all right? When can I see him?"


The surgeon said, "I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it."


Sally said, "Why do little children get cancer? Doesn't God care any more? Where were you, God, when my son needed you?"


The surgeon asked, "Would you like some time alone with your son? One of the 
nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university
."



Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good-bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair.

"Would you like a lock of his hair?" the nurse asked.


Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally. The mother said, "It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the University for Study. He said it might help somebody else. "I said no at first, but Jimmy said, 'Mom, I won't be using it after I die. Maybe it will help some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom." She went on, "My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could."


Sally walked out of Children's mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending most of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy's belongings on the seat beside her in the car. The drive home was difficult. It was even harder to enter the empty house. She carried Jimmy's belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son's room. She started placing the model cars and other personal things back in his room exactly where he had always kept them. She laid down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep.


It was around midnight when Sally awoke. Laying beside her on the bed was a folded letter. The letter said:

"Dear Mom, I know you're going to miss me; but don't think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you, just 'cause I'm not around to say I LOVE YOU. I will always love you, Mom, even more with each day. Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, that's okay with me. He can have my room and old stuff to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things us boys do. You'll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, you know. Don't be sad thinking about me. This really is a neat place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything. The angels are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know what? Jesus doesn't look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD! And guess what, Mom? I got to sit on God's knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important. That's when I told Him that I wanted to write you a letter, to tell you good-bye and everything. But I already knew that wasn't allowed. Well, you know what Mom? God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter. I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him 'Where was He when I needed him?' "God said He was in the same place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children.

Oh, by the way, Mom, no one else can see what I've written except you. To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn't that cool? I have to give God His pen back now. He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I'm, sure the food will be great.


Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don't hurt anymore. The cancer is all gone. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore and God couldn't stand to see me hurt so much, either. That's when He sent The Angel of Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was a Special Delivery! How about that?


Signed with Love from God, Jesus & Me.



(Let's see Satan stop this one.) Take 60-seconds and repost this, within the hour, you will have caused a multitude of believers to pray to God for each other. Then sit back and feel the Holy Spirit work in your life for doing what you know God loves
"When you're down to nothing, God is up to something.?



REPOST THIS, it's not just an ordinary chain letter. . .
 
i dont have a best friend.
i have four.
but not one that i can just go to
for anything.
not one who would just call me up
randomly.
not one who would just hug me
out of the blue.
not one who can take a joke when
it comes from me
--but from someone else
not one who would always wanna
hang out.
im just alone some nights
because two of them
are hanging out
leaving me
here;
alone.



 
and she dances, with [tears] running down her cheeks with every move.
she's thinking about [you] and how the love was destroyed
[cheating] is a word not in her vocabulary.
she's [lost] in her own world, not knowing what is right or wrong
the music goes [off] and she starts to sob, falling on her knees.
suddenly her phone starts vibrating, with [your] name written across the screen
she does the [fearless] thing and throws it  across the room
[screaming] as loud as she can,
letting her body spill the [pain]
make her brain her because of the [sounds]
forgetting for just a moment of what you [did] to her
this isn't how she wanted to end [highschool]
this isnt how she wanted to start a [new] life
you [wrecked] everything she had planned
everything she [ever] wanted
she thought you the [one] but was deadly wrong
 
she lays on her bed letting the tears [fall]
shes [broken] inside and cant do anything
she lays in complete [darkness]
with her favourite [stuffed] animal
and all [natural]
 
she finally [closes] her eyes
and lets herself [sleep] for a while
her mom wakes her up in the middle of the [night]
telling her your [here] in the living room
she does the [fearless] and gets out of bed
walking to the living room with mascara [stains]
hair a [mess] and that ol' tee
you stand and say [hello]
she stands there and closes her [eyes] looking down
she says i [hate] you and you ruined her
he [nods] and looks down
just dont do anything [stupid] im afraid for you
he says trying to touch her [hands]
she [smacks] his face and yells for him to leave
because shes so fed up with all his [lies]