life_is_pain

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Andrea, 14, cutter. My friends think my life is perfect but they couldn't be more wrong. My life is falling apart. 
Attempted suicide? Yes.
Fake a smile? Everyday.
On the edge of breakdown? Yes.

 

hey guys! please follow!<3    hey guys! please follow!<3 

Quotes by life_is_pain

get this onedirection nonsense out of witty.

its just red pen.

You Only Live Once

Yeah, so dont f**k it up in two days becuase you heard it in a rap song you idiots.

so this is what it feels like to have your heart broken.

i need time to think, 
but im afraid of my own thoughts.
i'm scared of the actions my thoughts might cause,
but mostly im scared of loving you.

the guy i've liked for a year, the one i've thought about 24/7, the one i compared everyone else to, the reason i didnt like anyone else becuase they arent like him, that guy, the one i truely like and may even love, who i thought was developing feelings for me too, the guy who took me star gazing and cuddled with while listening to his songs as he sung them to me while i wore his jacket and he held me tight, the one who me and him are now very close, the guy who kissed me on the cheek with such affection it ment more to me then an actual kiss, yeah him. 

He just told me he misses his ex-girlfriend and that he'll talk to me later.

That girl who broke his heart, liked a guy the whole time they were dating, made him soo upset at times where he wouldnt even talk to me, the girl who ditched him for other guys and didnt answer his texts, voicemails, or chats. yeah her.

I guess im not good enough, i guess being always there for him through thier on-again-off-again breakups and fights, being there to hug him and support him and to cheer him up, being there to listen to his stories and problems and  whatever was on his mind, laughing and goofing off,  fiting the excact description of the dream girlfriend he would awlays describe, i guess all that just wasnt enough.

i guess i'm not good enough for him.

and now that my heart is breaking and my eyes dripping with tears, i guess it doesnt matter because he wont be the one to hold me tight and swipe them from my face anymore.

yes, i've cut back on 89% of my food intake.
 im glad you've taken notice by just calling me pregnant.

 

forget the world, its just me and my bass tonight.
<3

 soo many mixed feeling about this.
Have fun Andrea. I care so much about you, like you so much, never did i think i would every actually mean it when i say i loved someone. Everyone always asked me why i chose you over all the other girls and you were sometin special, you still are but, your becoming a typical (my city) girl. I love you, i really do. I wish things between us were different but, it aint. Just know Andrea, no matter what, im here for you, i love you, and you'll always..always have a place in my heart. I wish you the best. I'll gurantee you no-one else cares as much as i do. text me if you want. But, i really do wish you the best, i hope your happy. Night beautiful.  
I'll gurantee you no-one else cares as much as i do. text me if you want. But, i really do wish you the best, i hope your happy. Night beautiful.