I
have a secret, the secret is that I cut myself, it's been a
year and half. My mom just found out two months ago, and since then
people who I'm close to found out too and now I feel like my
biggest secret has escaped and to me it feels like the whole world
knows and it makes me cry everyday. I know nobody would ever judge
me, but I feel as if they're ashamed and now they constantly
worry about me. I feel like a dissappointment to them. But deep
down inside, I don't mind cutting myself, it makes me feel more
alive then I do any other time. It's like my addiction. The
only thing is, my mom doesn't understand. And the things she
says thinking she's helping is really only make the situation
worse and causes me to cut more. I wouldn't ever go too far but
living in fear of myself is the worst pain I deal
with.