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Quotes by lilmissdramaqueen
yes attention from boys feels good
but knowing that im too good for
most of them feels even better.
I longed for love, but part of me
said to
forget that fairy tale: "Give it up. there
arent any good guys out there. and
even if there were, they wouldnt want you."
Could there be a bigger lie that we
feed ourselves.?
i said it a million times. i knew i was getting hurt,
but i played it off and acted invincible. even as i said
it, i thought of the tears i was shedding behind closed
doors. i tried to ignore the hurt i caused myself, my
family, my future husband. i didnt even want to
think about god and what he felt watching his daughter
slowly distroying herself.
Unfortunately you cant hide from
yourself when you're all alone.
when i went to bed at night, i knew i was living a lie. We all
lied
to our parents, but it took me a while before i realized i was
lying to myself.
What was i thinking? we knew all
along what stupid
things we did, but we drank to cover the shame and
then we blamed the alcohol as a pathetic way to say
it wasnt our fault. then we went back to the party to
numb the pain of an unhappy life, and the cylce went
on.
What i used to find so alluring
suddenly
filled me with disgust. it was all fake. . .
with a drink in hand, we were trying to
convince everyone that we were happy
so that maybe we'd convince ourselves