I cant stop crying; im so
homesick/confused/lost/done.....
if you were me you'd understand,
i feel like im losing everything, everyone. i am only 16 and i have
very little, all i hear is "i cant choose sides i love you
both" no , im done with that shh itt i cant take this any
more, im done with this that and the other oh and this boy and that
boy i only have one that keeps me moving, thanks for being there,
its bad when i cant even tell my best friend something bc shes 6
freakin hours away and she cant hold me and wipe my tears and just
let me cry, i miss that, i just want it all back. i want my life
before MHS was in the picture, back. but hey i guess this is what
teaches me in the future? i wish i wouldnt have wasted 10 months of
my life, i wish i wouldnt have gotten so caught up in someone i
should have knew wasnt always gonna be there, someone i knew was
gonna break my heart, but no now im paying the price, freakin
summer school. ugh i could be home with my family, maybe then me
and my mom wouldnt fight all the time, maybe if i actually got to
sit down and talk to her once in a while no i dont even get to do
that, i have nothing, i want to be a normal teenager i want to be
able to tell my mom goodnight and her say it back i want to see her
before i go to slepp but no i dont even have thattt, im so done, i
cant take it any more. i havent seen any of my family or friends at
home since april, and i didnt even get to see most of them, my best
friend got pregnant in july.. i havent seen her since, what if she
needs me? what am i to do? nothing i cant do anything? ughhh, i
freakin hate this. i just wish i knew why this was all happening,
what happened between us, we were perfect, then we are falling
apart? i dont get it, i just wish i understood,): i need a
hug. im going to bed.