liveXlava

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Joined: May 17, 2009
Last Seen: 5 years
Birthday: October 9
user id: 76708
Location: Brokewater,MA
Gender: F

My names Lauren
Im 19 & from Massachusetts
I got wicked blue eyes
Size Double 00 gauges
& long brown hair
I stand at 5'2" 
Get to know me*

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Quotes by liveXlava

I still remember a year ago, the times we spent
I feel that I’m happier now,Up from the down,By all means
It’s strange cause I feel the same way

Say Days Ago <3

Ten Day Challenge ♥


Day Ten: 1 Confession

I'm a compulsive liar;
I lie to make it seem like every things ok
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Ten Day Challenge


Day Nine: 2 words that describe my life right now.

  1.  Confusing
  2.  Eventful


Ten Day Challenge 

 

Day Eight: 3 turn on's.

 

1. Gauges

2. Long hair

3. Goofy Smile

Ten Day Challenge

 

Day Seven: 4 turn offs

 

     1. Big muscles

     2. Cocky people

     3. Unclean people

     4. Clingy people

20 Confessions in 20 days

 
Day 6 – Who hurt you the most
 
                There have been a handful of people who have hurt me in the past but there’s one person who has hurt me more than anyone, who hurt me numerous times and still to this day has never apologized about it. I only have one sibling and that’s my older sister. Since we were little we have never got along with each other. We would fight constantly and not the sisterly fighting I mean verbal, physical fighting. I don’t think me and my sister have ever had an actual conversation with each other. As we both got older we became more and more distant to the point where we don’t even realize the other exists and we live in the same house. She got older and started turning into a very bad kid, got kicked out of our house (If you look at some of my older posts you can read my letter to my sister) and screwed up our whole life. Story short what she did to me hurt really bad, and I can never forgive her for what she has not only done to me but what she’s done to my parents and family. She doesn’t care about anyone but herself and I will never be able to forgive her for that. She needs help and she doesn’t realize that.
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20 Confessions in 20 days

 
Day 5 – A love
 
A love well I have many loves, for one I love my family more than anything. I have a huge family on both my mom and dad’s side so when we all get together I’m at my happiest. They are always there for me through everything and I am so thankful to have all of them. One of my other loves would have to be my best friend Danielle. She lives 5 hours away from me now and we’re still there for each other. She’s like a sister to me and I know she will always have my back and I will always have hers. Besides Danielle my best friend Keith would have to be my other love. We met freshman year and would talk on the phone every night for hours. He’s like a brother I’ve always wanted, and besides Danielle is the only person who truly knows me. I tell him everything and he has been there for me through all my worst times during high school. Even though we don’t really talk as much as we use to, I will always love him and I know he will always love me too. Besides those people I guess the only other person I could say I loved was my ex. It’s crazy because we only dated for a few months and I usually don’t fall for boys that easily but something about him, I just can’t get out of my mind and I can truly say he stole my heart and I would do anything to get him back into my life.

20 Confessions in 20 days

 
Day 4 – Your biggest mistake
 
                I’ve made many mistakes in the past but my biggest mistake? That would probably have to be starting drugs. You may think this is silly since every teenager tries drugs at least once in their life but I started at a very young age. I was in 6th grade when I smoked my first cigarette and no I didn’t do it to look cool, I was going through a lot then and my older sister told me how smoking made her feel better so I started  smoking cigs to make myself feel better. I then moved on to smoking weed a few months later. My sister was the first person to give me some and said this will make you feel better. I thought both were both so disgusting but whenever I smoked I felt a lot happier and that I didn’t have any worry in the world, when I was high I didn’t care what others thought of me I was happy and content and I loved it. I’m now in 11th grade; I smoke about a pack a day and I feel like in order for me to be happy anymore I need to be under the influence. Not only with smoking but I tried other things too. I am currently getting help for this and so far I’ve been sober for about 2 months. I really ask anyone who is reading this is to think before you do something you know your going to regret or will ruin your life. I realized now how bad these things are and i hope nobody else is stupid enough to follow me down the same road I was on.
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Come on and break down and show us who you are
Memory of your first impressions only get you far
When you stay true, from beginning to end
Flexing all your morals your environment will make back
And to play cruel again

 

Set Your Goals

20 Confessions in 20 days

Day 3 – Your religion
 
                Alright I’m going to make this short and we’ll try to be sweet. I was brought up catholic, I was baptized and made my first communion and went to CCD until I think 5th grade and then stopped my mom told me if I don’t believe I don’t need to go and I was thankful for that. I also regret leaving because since then I stopped believing that there’s a god and I will go to heaven when I die. If there really was a man watching over me and loved me than why does he make my life a living hell? 2010 was by far the worst year of my life, I didn’t have many great things happen to me and people try telling me things will get better but it’s truly hard for me to believe. I feel like this religion stuff is stupid and people shouldn’t look up to a man who really doesn’t exist, I’m sorry if you’re really religious but this is my opinion and I feel like it’s all complete bullshit. There’s no god, were not going to go to heaven when we die our life is going to end, you’re going to get buried in the ground and will be forgotten in about 100 years, and that’s it. People should stop listening to people preach about god and live your life while you can have as much fun as you possibly can and live life to the fullest I know I try to and I think others should to
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