There have been a handful of people who have hurt me in the past
but there’s one person who has hurt me more than anyone, who
hurt me numerous times and still to this day has never apologized
about it. I only have one sibling and that’s my older sister.
Since we were little we have never got along with each other. We
would fight constantly and not the sisterly fighting I mean verbal,
physical fighting. I don’t think me and my sister have ever
had an actual conversation with each other. As we both got older we
became more and more distant to the point where we don’t even
realize the other exists and we live in the same house. She got
older and started turning into a very bad kid, got kicked out of
our house (If you look at some of my older posts you can read my
letter to my sister) and screwed up our whole life. Story short
what she did to me hurt really bad, and I can never forgive her for
what she has not only done to me but what she’s done to my
parents and family. She doesn’t care about anyone but herself
and I will never be able to forgive her for that. She needs help
and she doesn’t realize that. </3
A love well I have many
loves, for one I love my family more than anything. I have a huge
family on both my mom and dad’s side so when we all get
together I’m at my happiest. They are always there for me
through everything and I am so thankful to have all of them. One of
my other loves would have to be my best friend Danielle. She lives
5 hours away from me now and we’re still there for each
other. She’s like a sister to me and I know she will always
have my back and I will always have hers. Besides Danielle my best
friend Keith would have to be my other love. We met freshman year
and would talk on the phone every night for hours. He’s like
a brother I’ve always wanted, and besides Danielle is the
only person who truly knows me. I tell him everything and he has
been there for me through all my worst times during high school.
Even though we don’t really talk as much as we use to, I will
always love him and I know he will always love me too. Besides
those people I guess the only other person I could say I loved was
my ex. It’s crazy because we only dated for a few months and
I usually don’t fall for boys that easily but something about
him, I just can’t get out of my mind and I can truly say he
stole my heart and I would do anything to get him back into my
life.
I’ve made many mistakes in the past but my biggest mistake?
That would probably have to be starting drugs. You may think this
is silly since every teenager tries drugs at least once in their
life but I started at a very young age. I was in 6th grade when I
smoked my first cigarette and no I didn’t do it to look cool,
I was going through a lot then and my older sister told me how
smoking made her feel better so I started smoking cigs to
make myself feel better. I then moved on to smoking weed a few
months later. My sister was the first person to give me some and
said this will make you feel better. I thought both were both so
disgusting but whenever I smoked I felt a lot happier and that I
didn’t have any worry in the world, when I was high I
didn’t care what others thought of me I was happy and content
and I loved it. I’m now in 11th grade; I smoke about a pack a
day and I feel like in order for me to be happy anymore I need to
be under the influence. Not only with smoking but I tried other
things too. I am currently getting help for this and so far
I’ve been sober for about 2 months. I really ask anyone who
is reading this is to think before you do something you know your
going to regret or will ruin your life. I realized now how bad
these things are and i hope nobody else is stupid enough to follow
me down the same road I was on. </3
Come on and break down and
show us who you are Memory of
your first impressions only get you far When you
stay true, from beginning to end Flexing
all your morals your environment will make
back And to
play cruel again
Alright I’m going to make this short and we’ll try to
be sweet. I was brought up catholic, I was baptized and made my
first communion and went to CCD until I think 5th grade
and then stopped my mom told me if I don’t believe I
don’t need to go and I was thankful for that. I also regret
leaving because since then I stopped believing that there’s a
god and I will go to heaven when I die. If there really was a man
watching over me and loved me than why does he make my life a
living hell? 2010 was by far the worst year of my life, I
didn’t have many great things happen to me and people try
telling me things will get better but it’s truly hard for me
to believe. I feel like this religion stuff is stupid and people
shouldn’t look up to a man who really doesn’t exist,
I’m sorry if you’re really religious but this is my
opinion and I feel like it’s all complete bullshit.
There’s no god, were not going to go to heaven when we die
our life is going to end, you’re going to get buried in the
ground and will be forgotten in about 100 years, and that’s
it. People should stop listening to people preach about god and
live your life while you can have as much fun as you possibly can
and live life to the fullest I know I try to and I think others
should to </3