you know there's tension between us. we can't look each other straight in the eye and not have tension. there's just too much damage done between us to ever be fixed. and it really sucks. the awkwardness is too much. it's ridiculous to be honest. but, that's life. and there's nothing we can do about it.
I feel like I've gotten a lot smarter since I've met you. Not necesarily within my brain, but my heart. I learned a lot from you, I don't fall for boys as easy anymore. I don't believe all the things they say to me with such ease. I've learned not the take them seriously. I guess it's a good and bad thing but I want to thank you. Thank you for teaching me not put up with and believe bullshit.
If there’s one thing I’ve learned, it’s that you can’t let anything or anyone affect your ability to be happy. In the end you will be alive with or without them, and you can’t let anyone have that much if an impact on your life when you don’t know what is going to change. Because everything does. That’s one thing you can count on.
Our relationship is very confusing. We’re not exactly best friends, but we seem so close. We’re not exactly lovers, but we’re always together. We’re not exactly apart, but we seem like we’re on the edge.. So where do we go from here? Do we, take a chance and be together. Or stay friends, and let this moment pass us by. Or do we just let go, of everything we made. Tell you the truth, I don’t really know. So I’m hoping, hoping for your decision, and hoping it’s a good one.