lonesomemusketeer

Everytime I think "Maybe I've moved on now. It's been so long maybe I've finally gotten over you", I see you in the hall or one of your friends mention you. Then I remember how cute I thought all your little quirks were and how your eyes would shine when you were with HER. I still wish your eyes would shine like that for me. Even though you've caused me so much pain, heartache, and tears I don't think my heart will ever let you go. I'd love to have you even as just a friend now. You're a great person, and I hate not being in your life at all. Maybe this sounds crazy, but I think the only way for me to move on is to be your friend again. If you ever realize that maybe I'm not that bad after all and you'd like me in your life, just come find me. You'll always have a place in my heart, whether it be as a friend or more I don't know, but you can always count on me to be there for you.

We headbang [and crash].
We get high on Vault.
We act retarded and don't give a flip who sees.
We take more pictures than a studio.
We get stalked by Mexicans in red convertables.
We eat the cookie dough straight out of the tub.
We have silly string fights at midnight while being chased by cats.
We sit in hotel hallways talkin with the guys til curfew.
We walk the streets of Gatlinburg singing off-key.
We get attacked by guys with silly string and shaving cream.
We play keep away for hours never realizing the both guys have a hackysack.
We have more blonde moments than Books-A-Million has books and even more inside jokes.
[me n my gurls!]

A single tear rolls down my cheek as I realize it's my fault we no longer talk; that you barely acknowledge me. It makes it all the harder to let go when I just want to go back and erase that moment; the moment I told you I liked you. If I could only go back then you'd still be here, even if we'd be just friends I'd be the happiest girl in the world knowing that at least you're in my life.

I'm just a girl with frizzy hair and tiny feet and bright blue eyes.
I'm just a girl with a big heart who wants to share her love.
I'm just a girl who's obsessed with Converse and Starbucks.
I'm just a girl who wants somebody to see and love me for who I really am.

It's so hard to let go of something you've never had.

&& I feel so lonely and pathetic when I have a kid 2 years younger than me telling me he doesn't know how I've made it all this time always being single and never having anybody to call my own.

maybe[just maybe]i'm over you
maybe[just maybe]i've moved on
maybe[just maybe]i like someone else
but maybe[just maybe]loving you has made me a perfectly good lier

if only you would love me like i love you

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I'm just another girl full of love gone to waste.