lostinlove90

I'm starting to get those feelings again.
The feelings that I wont win this one.
I want to tell my parents, but whenever I do, I feel like I am breaking them too.

I promised myself I wouldn't let this happen to me anymore.
I promised myself I wouldn't let another guy in my life.
But I did, and slowly I can feel myself letting my guard down and having him come closer to me.
It scares me more than anything to be so vulnerable, to have my heart in the palm of his hands.

Demi Lovato is my idol.
She is the strongest person I know, I just wish I could be as strong as her.

I love you.
Just three letters, but behind it, is a whole new world. and ive never been more scared in my life to enter this world again.

I thought I was ruined forever.
That nothing would ever be right again, until someone special came along and proved me wrong.

He looks at me with these eyes,
these eyes that say he is not afraid to fall for me.
While I look at him with those eyes,
those eyes that say I have never been more afraid in my life.
 

And just when I thought things were getting better..

Every word you say to me shoots through me like a bullet.
You dont care though,
You just keep repeating yourself; saying its all my fault as im breaking down to nothing.
When I'm really gone, i hope you realize what you did to me.

I dont hate you, Im just hurt. Theres a difference

Everyone tried to warn me about him. Hes not good for you, they all said. You can do so much better dont get caught up in his games.
But I didnt listen. I thought we were perfect for each other and I completely fell for him.
Now, I realize the games he plays with girls. Just the thought of having another boyfriend scares me, what if he turns out the same way? He doesnt even understand what he did to me. im afraid to get into another realtionship now. He ruined me, and I dont even think he cares.