dont read this. its
just me compalining
today is the day that i will wipe away the tears, and get a hold on
life. he is just one boy. he is two years older than me. i love
him. but you know what? my best guy friend josh has always been
their. through the screaming and the tears he was their trying to
make me laugh. he is terribly socially awkward and i love him for
it. he writes me little notes in my agenda and lets me steal his
stuff. he writes on me with pen and pushes me into the lake. its so
obvious that hes right for me but stupid william always has to get
in the way. i shouldnt love you but i do. and i dont know why.
today you told me that i dont know you. and thats true! i dont know
you as well as i should. but i do know josh. he is an amazing
person and i really dont know what i would do without him. hes like
an older brother and a best friend rapped up in one. yeah sure he
gets on my nerves sometimes and really starts to bother me. but i
know that its only because he cares about me. he wouldnt go
out of his way to give me attention if he didnt. at this point i
think that josh is an amazing sweet kind smart and perfect. i just
wish that i could have fell for someone like him. but hey... maybe
i should be thankful that i didnt fall for him. maybe i should be
happy that this way their is no danger for our friendship. maybe i
should be happy because he deserves so much better than me. josh i
wish you the best cuz bud, you are amazing and i have not idea what
i would do if something happened to you. i dont know what to think
anymore. all i know is that i know nothing at
all.