love21xo

long but worth reading!
i bottle it up and hold back the tears everytime.
i know you love me and i know you work hard to support this family.
i know you try to do things with me and have fun.
but you need to realize im growing up and want to be with my friends more.
it doesnt mean i dont want to spend time with you cause i do.
its just that i dont always want to do things with you.
i do miss going to the beach and playing basketball like we always did, and i want to do tht with you.
im sorry.
i feel like a terrible daughter and a let down.
i feel like nothing is ever good enough, even when i try so hard to please you.
you havent gone to any of my basketball games yet like you used to.
i miss seeing you in the stands cheering me and my team on.
i know im your little girl, but you need to understand im growing up.
i'm sorry if you think i hate you, cause i dont even if i say i do, its just out of anger and disapointment.
im sorry if i dont reach your expectations or make you proud.
i try so hard and i feel like i never please you.
i guess i'm just tired of feeling like i let you down cause i dont want to let you down.
i know i do stupid stuff but i'll learn from my mistakes.
DAD im growing up and i want you to understand tht and i want you to try just try and appreciate the things i do because i try so so so hard to make you proud of me. and when im out on tht court i dont just play for my team o for me i play most of all for you just to make you proud.
i love you dad and im sorry.


 

I live in the shadows, I dwell on the past,
 I bottle up the hurt inside, and hope the pain won’t last,
I take long walks inside my head, and dream of peace while in my bed,
I am one of a kind but not too hard to find if you look within you will see my sins,
I have loved and lost and hoped and prayed and cried and cried my days away.
My hearts been cracked my souls been broke but I will never give up hope.
I Look beyond I look within to really see the life people live in.
Sometimes I fear the image of death but then I remember all that’s left.
People grow up and people will die,
But me well I’m just gunna’ live my life.