i can't
cry in public.
funerals,
heartbreak, trauma.
i won't cry in front of other people.
when i'm alone, i can cry.
but i refuse to cry in front of other people and
choke back my tears.
i'm an old pro.
i think it's because i was telling myself
for so long that crying in public meant i
was weak, so i held it in.
but really, it just shows you how weak i am.