Dear Leah,
I haven't stopped thinking about
you. You're a dominant figure in my life. I can't believe that
for the thirteen falls, winters, and springs you were alive i
didn't get to know you better. I want you to know i love you more
than i have every loved anyone. You're such a good listener. I love
writing to you. Everywhere.
I had a best friend. He's still
alive- but not healthy. Towards the end of December he was on
vacation for winter break at his farm house with his family and his
best guy friend. He overdosed on Heroine, and went into a coma. For
the 36 long hours he was in a coma his friends were worried for his
life. He could have died in those hours. Thanking god, he did not.
He went to rehab for a month, where he did NOT get better. He
smuggled drugs into the rehabilitation center. When he got out of
rehab roughly a month later he came to visit some people at school,
and when he came... he was high. I love him so much, and his
birthday was Wednesday, but i couldn't bring myself to write him a
letter. I was thinking about you, and how if your friends could be
writing concrete letters to you, they would. We all love you down
here on earth, and I'm sure everyone up there in heaven loves you
too. You inspire me in every decision i make, even just about
writing a letter to a childhood friend.
Thanks for all your help.
You changed my life, and so many others.
You changed all of us here in MTL. We realized what it's like to
lose someone we care about, and how to care about someone who
is gone. You taught us how to love and lose, lose and love. You
taught us to be strong. You taught us to be happy. You taught us
how to be kind. You taught us how to speak our minds. You taught us
how to listen. You taught us how to respect ourselves. You taught
us how to respect others. I can only wish you were here with us,
teaching us through your life. If you were here, though, and i
sound so selfish saying this, but i would have never knew you and
been as close to you as i am now. You're my diary, Leah.
I love you and miss you so much. I don't deserve to be alive,
you do. It should have been me, and everyone in MTL believes
that, as well. You've changed our community. It wasn't fair for
such a sweet, kind, loving, lovable, young, beautiful, helpful girl
to pass away, especially like this.
As always...
Always&forever,
Carly