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Hey, My name is Brittney.
14, I love writing, so I decided that I would do it on here. I absolutely adore everyone who reads what I write because I know there's people who notice me. I'm not weird, I promise. I love to talk too, so don't hesitate to comment saying 'Hey.' <3
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[R.E.S.I.S.T.A.N.C.E]
Chapter 24...

2 MONTHS LATER.
“I can’t believe you’re doing this.” Kylie started crying into my shoulder.
“Calm down, I’ll see you all the time!” I cooed.
“Seriously, Cori. If you don’t we’re gonna kill you.” Fiona giggled.
“Every weekend. Promise” I held up my right hand in oath. Kay-lee, Kylie, Fiona and I hugged and started crying again.
“Why are you girls crying so much? We’re only moving into the next town… Sheesh.” Ally said shaking her head as she put her last box in the truck.
“Oh shut up Ally.” I laughed.

My dad came outside and told me that I still needed to bring out my boxes and put them in the car. I went inside and my friends followed. I picked up the closest box to my bedroom door and went downstairs. They reluctantly followed with smaller boxes as I headed down the staircase for one of the last times. I opened the door and noticed an unknown person walking around the back end of the moving truck. I walked out to put my box in the truck but also to see who this mystery person was. It was Chris. I smiled with delight because, incase you didn’t know, me and Chris started dating last month.
“Hey babe.” He greeted me with a hug.
“Hey boo.” I hugged back.
“I’m gonna miss you Cori.” He stood back and looked me right in the eyes.
“I’ll call you everyday.” I reassured him with a smile.
“I love you” He took my hand and we went up to get my last couple boxes in my room. We came back down and I gave everyone my final hug and goodbye. I told Chris I loved him and gave him a passionate kiss on the lips and a lingering hug. Me and Ally piled into the car and I was looking forward to a new start. I watched as the car pulled further and further away from the old house.
“It won’t be that bad.”I thought aloud. It really wasn’t. All it’s gonna take is a little resistance.
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this is the final chapter
of resistance. even though
i doubt anyone is still reading this,
i hope you liked it!
again, i wanna apologize for not being
on enough lately. i hope to
be  starting a new a new story soon!
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[R.E.S.I.S.T.A.N.C.E]
Chapter 23...


I put my phone down, deciding not to. What the hell was wrong with my life lately? Does God hate me, or what? Ally walked in and sat next to me putting her arm around me.
“I feel like I haven’t talked to you in ages.” She simply said.
“Yeah, I know what you mean. Where’ve you been?” I asked accusingly.
“I don’t know. I’ve been doing anything to get out of this house. I want to move really bad. Way too many bad memories here, and I don’t know how much longer I can take it. But I haven’t talked to Dad about it. He probably won’t. Sorry I’m rambling on right now, it just feels good to actually be able to talk to someone who isn’t going to attempt to sympathize with me every second of the day.” She sighed and I could feel her deflate next to me. I hugged her and we sat there in comfortable silence.
“Hey, maybe we can. I think it’d be good to move, ya know? Like, therapeutic.”
“Exactly. I think it’s a good idea. Maybe we can run it by Dad soon….?” She gave me an expectant look and I couldn’t help but offer for us to talk to him right now. We sauntered down to my Dad’s room and hesitantly opened the door; we still weren’t used to him being sober. He was sitting on a chair, watching tv.
“Hey Dad. Can we talk to you?” Ally asked when he looked over at us.
“Yeah, sure girls.”
“We were wondering if we could maybe discuss uh….. Relocating?” I looked down at my feet as I asked.
“I’ve been thinking about that too girls, but I haven’t come up with a decision yet.” He looked at us both dead in the eye. Just by the look on his face I could tell what he was thinking : we were moving, and it was gonna be soon.
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[R.E.S.I.S.T.A.N.C.E]
Chapter 21...

After us being there for almost an hour, people started to file in. It took about 2 hours for the tears to start flowing non-stop.  I stood near his casket, and just wept. I felt a hand on my shoulder and didn’t even bother to look who it was. Whoever it was had their arms wrapped around me in a hug, burying my face in their shoulder. It made me cry harder, but it was the most comforting gesture I’ve had all week. I just wrapped my arms around this affectionate stranger and wept. They rubbed my back the whole time. I finally decided to look at who it was and my stomach flipped around. It was Chris.
“Hey there, beautiful.” He smiled shyly.  I didn’t even bother answering so I just cried harder and buried my face in his chest. He got the message and rubbed my back. I didn’t talk much during the viewing portion of it. I did even less crying in the burial portion; too busy saying my goodbyes internally. I went to bed as soon as I got home and tried my best not to think about tonight.
I woke up and opened my sticky eyes. They were practically sealed shut because I cried myself to sleep so the tears must have dried like that. I felt groggy. That must have been the worst night of sleep I’ve ever had. I dazedly got out of bed and walked down the hall and into the kitchen for some breakfast.
“Hey Al.” I greeted rubbing my eyes.
“Morning. You sleep okay?” She sympathetically asked, already knowing the answer. I just gave her a flat out “No.” and sat down at the kitchen table.
“Can you give me a muffin?” I asked nicely. As she tossed me one, my dad walked out.
“Morning, girls.” You could tell that he was not happy. Just one look at him and you could tell he wanted a beer.
“Hey dad. Want anything to eat?” Ally asked casually. He shook his head no and proceeded out of the room. I gave Ally a look and she knew what I was thinking: That he was mustering up the most resistance he could to not go out and by more beer. He knows that I’m willing to do whatever it takes to help him. I’ve told him numerous times. I finished my muffin, got a glass of orange juice, gave Ally a hug and went upstairs. I had a sudden urge to pee so I got up and went to the bathroom. A gasp of relief escaped my mouth when I noticed that I got my period.
That meant that I wasn’t pregnant.
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[R.E.S.I.S.T.A.N.C.E]
Chapter 20...

 I shut my phone and walked to my room. I played my iPod without the head phones in because I thought it would calm me down. It didn’t really help, though. I felt my phone vibrate in my back pocket and grabbed it already predicting that it was Chris.
C- yeah I didn’t think youd take it well. Sorry.
Me- No, no. Chris, I like you too.
C- Well would u like me to come to the funeral tonight, or would u rather I didn’t?
Me- My friends are gonna be there so… It’s up to you. I wouldn’t mind though…
C- I think ill come. U know, pay my respects and what not.
Me- Alright, see you then?
C- sure. (:
I got off of my bed, and for some reason had the urge to look good. Probably because Chris was going. I can’t believe that I really didn’t notice how much I liked Chris before. I got up out of my bed and went to my closet to pick out my outfit. I didn’t really own too much black, so I just picked this out of my sister’s closet -http://www.polyvore.com/funeral_lt/set?id=29182389-.  I set it on my bed, grabbed a towel, and headed towards the bathroom. I looked in the mirror for the first time in days, and I looked like crap. My hair was messy from not being brushed, my eyes were baggy from lack of sleep, and I didn’t have makeup on for the sake of not caring. I rubbed my eyes, shook my hair and actually brushed it for once. I already looked a lot better, but figured a hot shower would help a million times more. I stripped down and hopped in, letting the hot water sooth every bone in my body. I stood there for God knows how long and just felt all of my worries vanish for a few minutes. I practically unconsciously took my shower, washing my hair, body and face. I got out and diligently dried off. I got dressed, put on my makeup carefully, and then curled my hair. I looked kinda good all things considered. I walked downstairs and my sister was wearing a plain black dress, ballet flats, a grey cardigan, and a black headband with a flower on the side. She looked good, too. My dad walked out wearing a nice suit and he looked like he’d been crying.
“Hey, dad. You drink today?” I asked without looking at him because I didn’t know what he’d say to that.
“No, babe. I haven’t. I told you, I’m staying clean. I need to do it for you guys, don’t worry.” He reassured me, fixing his suit collar.
“Ally, you look really nice.” I complimented her, smiling.
“Thanks Cori. You look great as well.” She said back giving me a hug.
“We’re picking up Fiona, Kay-lee, and Kylie right?” I asked my dad.
“If we have to, that’s fine.” He answered. After we all got our jackets on and walked out to watch the most depressing things in our lives.
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[R.E.S.I.S.T.A.N.C.E]
Chapter 18...

I put my hand on his back reassuringly, not quite ready for a hug.
“I’ll help you with this dad. But you have to promise that you’re actually going to stick with it. You can’t give up and start this problem again…” I trailed off at the end trying to read his face. I’m not used to talking to my dad like this, so my attempt was pretty much useless.
“I swear. That sh●t has ruined my life, and I realized that. I need to stop. I’m going to an alcohol anonymous center so I’ll know how to handle my problems in a healthy way.” He stood up and started pacing. “I know it’s my fault that your brother did what he did. I never paid attention to any of you, I beat you, I’m just a bad person.” I couldn’t believe my eyes when I saw that he was crying.
“Dad…” I looked at him with tear-filled eyes. “How could you say that it’s your fault?” I felt one tear escape down the side of my face.
“Damn it, because it is! If I was a better father, don’t you think Sam would still be here? The pain that I feel is almost unbearable.” He started to rub his temples, which meant that he had a headache I guess. I started to cry too.
“Everything is falling apart dad. Everything. I don’t even know where to go anymore, or who to turn to.” I started up the stairs and when I looked at Sam’s door, I felt that stab of pain in my chest I’ve become familiar with in the past few days. I went into his room and looked around, for no reason at all, really. Looking in his desk, I noticed there was a piece of paper. I picked it up and opened it. Of course it was a suicide note. It said:
Dear everyone,
Obviously by now, I’m gone. I’m sorry that I did this to you, I just had no reason to live anymore. Nobody wanted me here anyway. Don’t blame yourselves, it didn’t have to do with you. Dad, I love you. Even though I probably shouldn’t, I really do. Deep down, under the alcohol, I KNOW that you’re a great guy. Gina, I love you, so much. Watch out for Cori for me. She needs someone to be there for her. And Cori, I love you little sis. Stay strong because honestly, I think that out of all of us, you always were the strongest. Help dad, both of you. Don’t cry too much, I wasn’t worth it. Now that I’m gone, you’re lives should be easier. Maybe not today, or for a while, but eventually it will be. Time heals a broken heart. If only I could follow my own advice… I love each and every one of you with everything I had. You two are beautiful, and smart. Don’t follow in my footsteps. Stay strong you guys. Love what you have while you have it. I’m sorry I had to put you through this pain. I couldn’t deal with mine any longer. It was my time to go.
Love, Sam.
I crumpled up the paper and threw it across the room. I fell to the floor in a fetal position, and oddly enough, I wasn’t crying. I was just thinking of all the things in my life. Damn, I need to do something about that.
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