loveizzy

so i want to share a story with you guys that had me in tears at lunch today.

there is a girl in my grade and she's not very talkative. I follow her on instagram and she posted a picture of her upper arm. It was just full of cuts. She wasn't posting that to get attention. She just said "hi guys, i just wanted to post this picture so that i don't have to explain the cuts everyday. since it's getting hotter, we won't be wearing our blazers anymore, so everyone will see them. but don't worry about me." 

her parents found out about this picture and her cuts, so they sent her to the hospital to get help. she wasn't in school and this one boy in her homeroom, also in my grade, heard that she wouldn't be in school because of these self-harm cuts. he texted her the night before she was going to the hospital and said "hey, i just wanted to let you know that i had the biggest crush on you last year. i never came up with the confidence to ask you out. you were just too breathtakingly beautiful that i thought i would get flustered. i did end up getting over my crush on you, but i still think that you are absolutely beautiful, and i don't want you to ever forget that."

he never did have a crush on her. he just wanted to show her that someone does care about her and that she shouldn't give up.

boys like him give me hope in the world.

                 me after i finish eating cereal

                 me: puts cereal in fridge

                 me: puts milk on shelf

                 me: wait what.

do you ever get those moments when you see a girl who is absolutely gorgeous and has the hair you want, skin you want, tan you want, face you want, body you want… and then you look at yourself and feel absolutely worthless and self esteem drops the floor?


oh how i love being a girl

                           i wonder if anybody’s actually had feelings for me, like actually got upset or mad over little
                           things i did and got jealous and confused over me and thought about me on a regular basis.              
                           i feel like i’m the only person that ever really cares about anyone and that nobody’s ever felt
                           that way for me.

                       i'm multi-lingual
                       i speak...

                           -song lyrics
                           -movie quotes
                           -sarcasm
                           -whale

               


                he obviously doesn't care about me anymore.
                so why should i?
                why do i?
                i'm done with caring about him.
                i'm done with caring about myself.
                i'm just done with caring.
               goodbye.

                            "You look so thin!"
                                -said no one to me, ever

             


                         white dad in any movie: but son, you're throwing away your DREAM

                         white son in any movie: no dad. i'm throwing away YOURS.