loves_all_you_need

 

why i does everyone come to me for advice..
did you ever think maybe
i need some too?.

Even though i really loved you  
I'm gonna smile
because i deserve to.

R.I.P. Blake
Blake was a gay male cheerleader
he commited suicide due to bullying.
Wear white tomorrow in honor of Blake
to show that we dont support bullying.
Please fav this so everyone can see it
WEAR WHITE MAY 11TH IN HONOR OF BLAKE

no one understands.
its not just another friend im losing. its my BEST friend.
i doubt anyone will read this but here's our story.
we are both cheerleaders. one day i was working on a stunt and when i came down i saw her walk by. surrounded by people. laughing. gorgeous. she looked like she had everything. so i wanted to get to know her. we went to a competition that year and i was a senior, she was a junior. seniors got 1st place and juniors got 3rd. i texted all of the juniors and told them how great they were and to me, they were the best team there. we started talking and we literally clicked instantly. we liked the same things, hated the same people, wanted the same things, everything best friends should have. and thats exactly what happened.. it started as hanging out then came the sleepovers and, soon enough, we were best friends. inseperable. we spent every weekend with each other. she knew ALL of my secrets and i knew all of hers. we were one of a kind. then after about 6 months.. she started hanging out with other people a lot more. she never asked me to hang out, i always had to ask her but whenever i mentioned it to her she got mad and we started fighting me. so i dropped it. i didnt realize it at the time but it got to the point where i was apologizing for every fight we had, even if it was her fault. because if i didnt apologize first, we never made up. then slowly but surely we fought more and more. starting about a month ago we would fight every day. she would keep secrets from me, wouldnt tell me anything, never called or texted me back. and i hated it. but every time i thought about who she turned into, i couldnt help but remember who she was. and that was what killed me. i missed who she was, what we had, the things we did. we were the perfect best friends. and she was willing to throw all of it away like it was nothing. because she found new friends. and they were more important to her than i was. honestly, i hope she sees this. because she'll finally know how i feel. she has no idea, since she doesnt call me back and fights with me every time i try to tell her. the thing is... i just cant let everything go. i just cant pretend we were never best friends. i cant walk by her in the halls and act like i dont know her. i cant delete her number from my phone. i cant throw away all of the letters she wrote me. i just cant do it. if you read this, i love you.

i act like such a happy person
but im really not
i know other people have it worse
but that doesnt mean my problems
dont matter