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"To me, “fearless" is not the absence of fear.
It’s not being completely unafraid. 
To me, fearless is having fears. fearless is having doubts. Lots of them.
To me, fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death.
fearless is falling madly in love again, even though you’ve been hurt before.
fearless is walking into your freshmen year of high school at fifteen.
fearless is getting back up and fighting for what you want over and over again… even though every time you’ve tried before, you’ve lost.
It’s fearless to have faith that someday things will change. 
fearless is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you,
even if you can’t breathe without them.
I think it’s fearless to fall for your best friend,
even though he’s in love with someone else.
And when someone apologizes to you enough times for things they’ll never stop doing, I think it’s fearless to stop believing them.
It’s fearless to say “you’re not sorry”, and walk away.
I think loving someone despite what people think is fearless.
I think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is fearless.
Letting go is fearless.
Then, moving on and being alright…That’s fearless too.
But no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it.
You have to believe in love stories and prince charmings and happily ever after.
That's why I write these songs.
Beacause I think love is fearless.”
― Taylor Swift 

Sometimes the most ordinary things could be made extraordinary,
simply by doing them with the
right people. 

  I fell in love when we were together,
then fell deeper in love with her in the years
we were apart.

That’s why I don’t tell people about us. They wouldn’t understand, and I don’t feel the need to explain, simply because I know in my heart how real it was… How real this is. When I think of you I can’t help smiling, knowing that you’ve completed me somehow. I love you, not just now, but for always, and I dream of the day that you’ll take me in your arms again. 

Now here's a story for you.
My mom was diagnosed with breast cancer.
My dad lost his job.
On top of that, my sister has been into drugs for so long.
It has been three and a half months and my mom has quit smoking and gotten surgery.
She is now getting radiation treatments.
My dad found a new job, even better than the last one.
and my sister got help and is doing so much better.
The point of my story is that
things really do get better.
good things take time.
never forget that.
 

After all that's said and done, I still think you're amazing.
I still cherish every moment I ever spent with you and
every smile you brought to my face.
I'll forever be thankful that someone like you was brought into my life,
even if it had to be taken away too soon.
You were my miracle;
you were my fairytale I got to live.

I know that we won't ever really be close again, and that hurts more than you know. But all I can really ask for right now is for you to be a decent person. Maybe even a decent friend. Because I need something, anything. I just need some ounce of hope that things will look up again for us, that we haven't lost everything. Because right now, all I have are memories, which hurt to remember, knowing I won't ever have them back. I wonder if you know how much this hurts for me, to go each day without you, to see you not care. And there are moments, when I think that maybe this day will be different, and maybe things are turning around, but those are just moments that fade away quickly. And I know that in the long run that you'll never be here. You will never be here for me again and that hurts because no matter what, I have and will always be there for you. 

I couldn't do it anymore. I couldn't handle the emotional pain that you have been putting me through anymore. Even though you refuse to admit to doing anything wrong and you probably never will admit to it. I'm not sorry for anything. Looking back we've both messed up. We've both probably hurt each other more than any other person ever will. You say I've changed, this is true because I don't need you anymore. I finally realized you bring me down more than any other person I've known has. I'm such a stronger person now. You've changed more than you know or will admit to. Tell me I'm wrong, it won't change the truth. You told me I wasn't the person you wanted anymore. I can see that now. What we had was unexplainable and I will never forget or regret it. We've both grown in different directions and I hope those different directions lead us somewhere amazing. I'm upset about what is happening now. However, it hasn't had a huge affect on me like everything else has. For once, I didn't freak out, I didn't break down. It just proved to me you're not the person I used to love. I want you to know I am truly happy and think about you from time to time. I am also not mad at you and I do still claim to know you. I just hope you have happiness like I do. I hope things don't stay like this.