its incredible that just one thing could make you insane, that
one person could mean everything to you. its impossible to think
that one day you would just wake up and meet someone and that
someone is never going to leave you. that someone is going to be
on your mind everyday of your life. out of all the millions of
people in the world, there is only one person you are going to
wake to see when you wake up and fall asleep next to the very
next day. that you could see this person everyday but yet still
miss them when they are not with you. you feel lost without them,
in a crowed room. there is no one you would rather be with than
this person. you wake up thinking about seeing him and holding
his hand while walking down the street,having lunch with him for
30 minutes and then you both go on your seperate ways waiting to
see them later that night. all you can do is think about where he
is, what hes doing, what hes thinking and if he is thinking about
you. you just want to be with him, see him. even if its just for
2 minutes. that 2 minutes feels like forever when you're with
him, because you are going to be with him forever, or at least
that is how you can picture it in your mind. the way he walks,
talks, listens, you have it memorized down to the T on everything
he does. you wonder if he is thinking the same thing when he see
yous, does he notice the things i do for him? does he realize
everything i do is for him? when you can't help but say his
name every 5 minutes and wait for someone else to bring him up in
a conversation, just so you can talk about him. talk to him, be
with him, is all you think about all day. is this called
love? or obsession. does he feel the same is what i wonder
every signle day, does he really want to see me everyday, does he
really want to hold my hand in public, does he really love me the
way i love him. does he think about me the way i think about him.
all these things just running through your mind, you cant handle
the thought of not being with him after eveything you have been
throuhg. there will be a time where you have to chose. choose
between ending a lifetime of happiness or marrying that person
standing infront of you. could you see yourself being with him
forever? or is this all just a fairytale ending you imagined in
your mnd, that never really ends. i can not grasp the thought in
my mind that this is how i feel.
i cant stand the though of not being with him every single
second of everyday. its hard to picture it without him, who will i
call when i cant fall asleep, who's going to kiss me when im
crying, whos going to hold when when im upset, its just all too
much. i dont want to feel this way because i know one day its not
going to be this way, one of us is going to go our seperate way, i
dont want it to happen but i can feel it. i can already feel the
dizzieness and nausa that comes with a heart break. im scared. im
scared im becoming to close and he doesnt feel that way. i'd
give anything to know he feels the same way. that all he can think
about is me and how he wants to end his day holding my hand kissing
me in public. im scared that this s going to end, and im not ready
for that to happen just quiet yet. im truly falling in love with
you.