matthewisthename

If i could find a way to make every girl out there for beautiful for even a second i'd do it... <3


-Matthew

I'm Matthew. Lemme tell you about my life.

My parents got divorsed when i was a baby. I grew up with my dad until i was about 10, then i got sent to foster care. My father was had abused me and sent me to the hospital multiple times. I havent talked to him since. When i was about 10 or 11 i started cutting myself to ease the pain and it eventually turned into suicide attempts.
I met a girl named Alexis when i was in kindergarten... and ever since then i wanted to marry that girl. We used to play on the play ground. I'd even play barbies and bratz with her haha... she was the love of my life. Last month she was in a car accident. She didnt make it alive. Now my whole life is crumbleing before me and i just want to die. I dont feel good enough for anybody. Please like this if you read it and care:( nobody else does.

Im Matthew.

Ive been cutting myself and burning since i was 11... and every day gets a little harder.
I need motivation. Please help me.
:(

If i had a girlfriend......
I'd hold her and never let her go.
i'd make her feel like shes the most important thing on earth. 
Id sing to her, make her laugh and never hurt her. 
I wouldn't ever disrespect her and i'd make sure she knows shes beautiful every day.
<3

I'm brand new here, and so far... all i've noticed is fighting over stupid things.

You girls are all too beautiful to fight<3

-Matthew.