dear diary,
I saw him in the hallway today. I went this specific way so that he
was forced to look at me. He was forced to look at what he threw
away. I could feel him staring at me. I simply lifted my phone to
my face and smiled. I just kept walking. My screen was black. But
that doesn't matter. For a few seconds, he could feel exactly
what I've felt for the last week. He had a meet today. I
didn't go. I couldn't. After what he did to me, I just
can't. Maybe he'll never know why...and I'm okay with
that. I wanted him to run up and just kiss me today, but he
didn't.
dear diary,
I saw her today. She only walks this way when we don't have
gym. It's as if she does it on purpose or something. It's
like she's forcing me to look at her. Well, I see you. I always
see you. In gym class when she's smiling, not because of me. Or
when she's laughing, and I'm not the reason why. She used
to come to my matches and cheer me on. She didn't come today. I
really messed up this time. I wanted to just kiss her and tell her
to be patient. I'm not an easy person to get through to, I
thought she understood that. I wanted to kiss her, but I
didn't. I just kept walking.