Confusion taking over my mind
control goes out the window
Hurry up, sort it out
my heart is gasping out
Smiling and laughing on my face
hurting and wondering consume my mind
Constantly distracted, in a fog
life is quickly fading away
My whole world crashing down around me
can't decide what's real and what's made up
Wishing I had some guidance
Someone honest to give me
answers
Someone to
show me life has meaning
To teach
me how to trust
to make me be loved again
forgiven for my wrongs
To laugh and
smile and have that sparkle in my eyes
to love and be loved..
If I can't go back
Please let me start again
A new start on
life and finding myself.
a new beginning.
so, no
one will read this. but this is the story of my first kiss..it
was july 4th. it was SO hot outside and i had on a blue and
white shirt. he wore a blue shirt (ironically) & i went to his
house because my "sister" lives across the street. i called him
at 10:30 and told him to get his butt outside.he told me his
goal for the summer was to kiss me..so we hugged for like 5
minutes and i had to go to a festival ): so he texted me saying
"i should've kissed you, right then. i'm so sorry."& after the
festival i came back & we hung out behind this old abandoned
house. we just talked and talked..then i left AGAIN. but it was
okay, because he was still walking in his neighborhood and my
second mom dropped me off next to him. i ran out of the car and
we hugged..and he leaned back, looked in my eyes and he kissed
me. i was so astonished and
happy.
thing is..we broke up. september 6th.
and im STILL in love with him. he has a girlfriend and me and
him are best friends..but he wont hang out with me because he's
scared to fall for me again while he has a gf..i want him SO
bad. if you read all of this..i love you.