mcmac338

Is there a condition that makes you depressed when you're alone?
Because whenever I'm not around my friends I'm seriously depressed and I have bad thoughts... I just want to know if it's like a problem or if I'm just weird...

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That one girl who in her room and cries is the "happiest girl you know" because she doesn't want people to feel bad for her so she puts on a fake smile and acts that way. She wants to change everything about herself and needs someone to talk to but has no one. The one she loves will never think of her more as a friend and it eats her from the inside out. Her life is slowly draining out of her and she can't take it any longer. She judges because she's insecure and can't help it. She's trying to perfect herself for other peoples benefits. She does things for other people but nothing ever for herself. Thinks about everyone before her, puts other people before herself. She doesn't want people to return the favor she's happy to do it -- but the least she wants is some respect. She's never hurt herself because she doesn't want her parents to worry anymore than they already do. She can't trust anyone. She doesn't believe in god because she can't believe in anything anymore. Her sister is one of the main reasons for her insecurity. She feels like if she dies it's better for everyone. Less of a burden on her parents, less of a pain for her friends. She has a high pain tolerance because she's been hurt enough in the past by everyone. Internal and external pain from family, friends, etc... And she's crying and writing this right now.......... thank you for reading this. You didn't have to waste your time. I don't want attention I just need to say it.....

This girl used to shine so bright

but I watched all of it fade away..

She sits in her room,
ipod turned up high. broken hearted, but too stubborn to cry.
she grabs a pillow to drown out the screams. little do they know
the pretty girl isn't quite what she seems. when she's all done
breaking down, she puts on a smile she's so used to faking it kinda
looks real. she doesn't let others know what she feels. when they
ask if she's hurting she says it's nothing.
it's honestly alot. she says she's alright, but really she's not. when
she can't hold them in any longer the tears stream down her face
she can't even breathe as her heart falls out of place. tears falling
fast, the poor thing's going insane. he broke her apart. no trust
will be found. this is what they call a total break down.//♥
 

This is sammy123's quote... i posted it again because it's exactly what I'm going through. I just wish someone would try to help...