megan42599

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Hi. My name is Megan Ann Marinos. I'm not your average teenage girl. I'm well, different. I was born in Kingston, Pennsylvania on April 25th, 1999 to an amazing family. I have a twin sister that is one minute younger than me. I can be so mean to her, but she's annoying at times. She is honestly my world. My inspiration. She knows all of my secrets and she looks out for me. Her name is Morgan and she's simply beautiful. My mom grew up in a big family of 5 brothers. My mom is a major bitch and she makes me want to die in a hole sometimes, but I still love her. My grandmother had 7 siblings and my grandfather had 11. My grandma has a special place in my heart. She neared death multiple times and I've seen it. She's a strong woman who surpassed both lung cancer and open heart surgery. She has had many seizures, some I have seen and I took it hard. I could sit for hours just talking to her. I saved her life once. She's older so I'm afraid I'll lose her and I will take it very hard. She's the most important woman in my life and I can also talk to her about my grandfather who passed away 5 years ago. I'm my grandmother's guardian angel and I'm proud to be that. She says that she would be dead without my mother, Morgan, and me and I'm blessed to know I have a strong, wonderful woman like that in my life to love. Out of my mom's brothers, I am by far the closest to the oldest one. He is Uncle Sam. I am so close to him and his wife, Barbara Alba. They're the two people I am closest too. They are so good to me, too good. I can keep secrets with them and have the best times with them. They treat me like I'm their own and I love it. On to my father... I am just like my dad and I am definitely a daddy's girl. My father is a blessing. He shouldn't be walking or speaking today. My daddy surpassed a horrible disease; he had a brain tumor when he was in his twenties. My dad is very protective of me and he's just a big goofball. I love just laying with him at night. I remember being a little girl. The warm nights when we played baseball and went out for ice cream after long walks hand and hand.My dad didn't have a father who was so involved in his or his two brother's lives. He's a mommy's boy. I love my dad's mom, even though she is a little wacky. She's been involved in my life since I was born and still is. My dad is also a savior. My mom left a guy whom abused her for my dad. That makes me a stronger girl today. To this day, I look up my parents and I say 'goodnight, I love you' every night before I go to sleep. I've been going through a rough time in life. I try to act happy and bubbly, but I hate life. I cut, and I have times where I just want to end it. Why? No one would care if I died. I have no one to relate too. I lost my best friend. My parents hate me and I hate myself. I'm ugly, and I do everything wrong. I do some bad stuff too, but shit happens. Oh well. I am a short, blonde, outgoing girl. I can stick up for myself, because I have a bitchy side. I am a national honor student who has had straight a's since Kindergarten. That is one thing that makes me proud. I am very skinny and I get made fun of a lot for it. I could be annoying, but I don't think I am disliked by many. I have a lot of friends. My best friend is Nicole Jordan Harper. We aren't really best friends right now, but she is my world. She deffinitely hurt me, but it's hard to erase someone that you would die for from your life. I cry every night because of her. That girl was the only one who understood me. We were inseperable.I have hazel eyes. I have tiny boobs, but I also have a gigantic butt. I make friends easily. I'm not shy. I love to write, it's my passion. I'm a good soccer player. There's a lot to me. My dream is to find that special someone and have twins (a boy and a girl) and one more boy. I plan on going to Harvard if I try hard and succeed I think I can really do it. Many believe I have the potential to. I want to be a teacher and a family girl. I hope to be a fantastic mother, wife, sister, daughter, cousin, niece, aunt, and so on throughout life. I have a high metabolism. I rarely lie. I tell it how it is. Music is my passion. Stay is my favorite song; it makes me cry because it is my life story somehow. I love Country, but I'm a rap girl too. I love to drink coffee and eat chocolate. I'm very healthy and a fruit lover. I am very social and hate to be alone. I'm glad I'm still here today living this crazy life. I'm very outgoing, as I mentioned before. I cannot sit through a dull moment and I don't care if I'm loud. I'm a good student. I love to cook. Well, there's a lot to me, but this is pretty basic. Please don't judge me, that's my only weakness; being judged, even though I will stand up for myself. Kay. Thanks for stalking. ;*
 
It Gets Harder Everyday<3

Quotes by megan42599

I think I want to die. 
But in reality,
I just want to be saved.

 

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Hi.
I lost my best friend and now I have no one.
My life sucks.
Bye.

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SCHOOL<3

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One Day.
I will not cry.
Not a single tear.
Unfortuneately, I know that day isn't coming soon.
For now, the tears are okay. I'm used to them.
My night wouldn't be normal without them.
<3

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Heart beats fast.
Colors and promises.
How to be brave.
How can I love when I'm afraid?
To fall.
But watching you stand alone,
all of my doubt.
Suddenly, goes away some how.
One step closer.

 

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Razor Blade</3
I'll miss you, razor blade.
You were my only friend, razor blade.
Oh, how I'll crave you, my razor blade.
You rescued me, razor blade.
You understood me, razor blade.
But, you really didn't help me;
you made me worse, razor blade.
You'll always stay, razor blade.
But, razor blade, I'm leaving.
The scars won't fade, my lovely razor blade.
You've been soaked with tears,
and dried with blood.
You've been through enough, I'm done.
I fear you now, razor blade.
I hate you, sharp razor blade.
Fifteen scars from you, my friend.
This must come to an end.
I regret you, razor blade.
You could've killed me, razor blade.
I'm stronger now.
You've been defeated razor blade.<3
 

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My dream<3
On April 25th, one of the two sixth grade boys I like...
will ask me out in the cutest way.
We will have the perfect love story.
He will kiss me at the perfect time.
He'll never ditch me,
We'll date for at least six months.
Our break up will be easy...
No fighting with a perfect friendship...
Like Jared and Savannah(:
Is that all to much to ask for?<3

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There's this girl in my life.... Her name is Sierra Lexia Dudek. She's been one of my best friend's for one year and four months now. I know everything about her and she knows everything about me. Sierra Lexia Dudek is amazing. She may be crazy, but we have the best times together. Like really, she's been here through it all. I peed on her floor. She knows my secrets and I know hers. She's tall an...d skinny, and beautiful. She can lie, a lot, but I always catch her. I know how to make her laugh, and when she's crying I bring her up as she does for me. I owe her so much. She's done so much for me. I keep her out of trouble. I love her sister as well, Amber. I cannot go one single day without talking to her. She is daring and caring.♥ Sierra, I honestly love you so much. We may fight but I always give you that smile when we do, no matter how much I try not too. You're family to me. Our songs♥ Hey Soul Sista! Call Me Maybe?(; Well, you mean the world to me. Never change. Love you my best friend, Boo-Boo. You will always have that special place in my heart called Boo-Boo(; BLONDE BUDDY BOO-BOO'S♥. -DollFace♥ ;*
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What I say to a guy that cheated on me....
& don't bother talking to me ever. & I hope you know that we were close. You were a good memory for me. but you'll be a bad one when you tell people about what I do. I realize that now. But you know I like to know things especially like that. I would find out eventually. You do not realize how much it hurt to find out that everything was fake and you didn't ever care. That brought everything in my life down. I never expected that. It hurts. I go through life alone now, with only a razor as my friend. It's hard. Life is hard. I go to bed feeling like I don't deserve to get up in the morning as the blood dries. I don't feel like walking or talking. I never stopped hating myself. That's the only true person I hate. I wish it was easier, I really do, but it's not.now you're going to and i'm not strong. so there goes my life.
I think I got my point across,







 
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Oops, I did it again. Why? Why must I put myself through this? I can't take this anymore. No one talk to me.
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