I honestly don't know what to do
anymore. I just need to vent,and if someone actually decides to
read what I'm writing, I'll love you forever.
<3
A few months ago, I
liked this kid, Justin, who was in my biology class, and we
flirted almost every day, when we were up doing our labs.
I was too afraid to really do anything so I just lightly flirted
with him. In about December or January, I got messaged on
facebook by this kid, Jake, who I eventually started dating in
March. While I was dating Jake, I hadn't really gotten
over Justin and he was kinda there in the back of my mind.
Oh, and Justin is also in my fitness class, too. Jake
and I had been dating for about a month and a half and throughout
the whole time he started to get really clingy and attached and
emotional and stuff. He has anxiety and ADD so that doesn't
really help much either. About 2 weeks ago Justin started
to flirt with me again and being the bad person that I am, I
flirted back. Feeling really bad about that, and also losing
feelings for Jake too because of his clinginess, I broke up with
Jake on Wednesday. I was sick Thursday so I didn't get to see
either one of them and we also didn't have school in my
county today so I'm going 4 days without seeing either of
them. Since I overthink things a lot, I'm having a really
hard time with all of this and I'm starting to re-build
fellings for Jake but then I remember how clingy and annoying he
was but then again I remember how sweet and adorable he was and
how into me he was an it's just urg. I don't even know
what to do. I decided about an hour ago to make a pro's and
con's lift of both of them and this is what i came up
with:
Jake:
PRO:
~sweet
~caring
~long hair
~lives close
CON:
~clingy
~emotional
~lovey
~can't joke
~stupid
~doesn't care about grades
~fragile.
Justin:
PRO:
~athletic
~strong
~funny
~sweet
~nice
~big, blue eyes
~long fippy hair
~smart
CON:
~don't know him very well other than his best
friend is Lucas & he loves video games
~friends with Ryan (a kid I almost fought last
year)
~don't have his number
And with that list, I saw that
both is in Justin's favor. Pros are 4:8 and Cons are
7:3. I hate this so much. I just want to
have the right thing for me handed to me because I feel like I
can't talk to any of my friends about it cause Ifeel like
they would get annoyed but whatever i dont know.
If anyone has any advice for me if you
read this, i'd appreciate it. :)
<3