midnightlover

Hey it's Aija here.
 

About: I'm not a very inspiring person although I wish I could be. I like to write stories. It's very hard for me to find time to write them so just bare with me if you read them. I enjoy feedback. I'm a huge dreamer. And yet I'm pulled back by the reality of everything. I don't feel like I get anywhere in life. I walk 2 steps forward and am pulled 10 steps back. I have always dreamed of traveling the world and seeing the places I've only read or heard about. So if you could please describe places you love or have wanted to see and maybe if my biggest dream comes true I'll visit the place you mention. Thoughts and ideas always cloud my mind. I don't think I ever stop thinking. If you want to know more about me just hit me up. I'm a pretty open person about most things and I'm willing to give advice to others. Oh and I also would love if people could tell me some songs to check out. I love hearing new things. Books and quotes are also appreciated on my account. Don't have anyone I really talk to on this site but that's okay. You guys probably wouldn't like me very much anyways.

Favorites: Very little because I fall in love with everything. One of my few favorites is a Lily. And I'm obsessed with old fashioned names. My favorite author by far though is Ellen Hopkins. Check her out guys. You won't regret it.

Personality: I guess you could say I'm always happy. At least that's what my friends think. In all actuality though I'm not. Every thing ticks me off easily. I feel like I'm always right about a situation. Very aggressive.

 

Quotes I'm obsessed with:

~He is drowning, and it is too late. He reaches
for her like an addict reaching hopelessly for the drug
he has sworn not to touch again,
having decided it is better to burn up in one final blaze
than live forever without it.~

~But she's not like a star. Stars are bright but they're
small and all to alike from afar.
She's more like a firework;
She's bright and loud and unescapable.
And you barely have long enough to marvel at her beauty,
before she's disappeared again,
leaving your night sky nothing but a cluster
of stars once more.~

~If your eyes weren't open, you wouldn't know the
difference between dreaming and waking.~

~You is kind. You is smart. You is important.~

~Real love finds you once,
if your lucky.~

~Khalepa ta kala.~

~To love is to destroy. And that to be loved,
is to be the one destroyed.~

~The most dangerous sicknesses, are those
that make us believe that we are well.~

~There are dreamers and there are realists in the world.
You think the dreamers would find the dreamers and the realists would find the realists,
but more often than not, the opposite is true.
See, the dreamers need the realists to keep the dreamers from soaring too close to the sun.
And the realists? Well, without the dreamers,
they might not ever get off the ground.~

~I'm thankful for my years spent with this family, for everything we shared,
every chance we had to grow. I'll take the best of them with me and
lead by their example wherever I go. A friend told me to be honest with you,
so here it goes. This isn't what I want, but I'll take the high road.
Maybe It's because I look at everything as a lesson, or because I don't want to walk around angry,
or maybe it's because I finally understand. There are things we don't want to happen,
but have to accept. Things we don't want to know, but have to learn. And people we can't live without,
but have to let go.~


 

Story passages that I love to the moon and back:

    I run for I don't know how long. Hours, maybe, or days. Alex told me to run. And so I run. You have to understand. I am no one special. I am just a single girl. I am five feet two inches tall and I am in-between in every way. But I have a secret. You can build walls all the way to the sky and I will find a way to fly above them. You can try to pin me down with a hundred thousand arms, but I will find a way to resist. And there are many of us out there, more than you think. People who refuse to stop believing. People who refuse to come to earth. People who love in a world without walls, people who love into hate, into refusal, against hope, and without fear. I love you. Remember. They cannot take it.

     "You swore to stay with me," he said. "When we made our oath, as parabatai. Our souls are knit. We are one person, James."
     "We are two people," said Jem. "Two people with a covenant between us."
     Will knew he sounded like a child, but he could not help it. "A covenant that says you must not go where I cannot come with you."
     "Until death," Jem replied gently. "Those are the words of the oath. 'Until aught but death part thee and me.' Someday, Will, I will go where none can follow me, and I think it will be sooner rather than later. Have you ever asked yourself why I agreed to be your parabatai?"
     "No better offers forthcoming?" Will tried for humor, but his voice cracked like glass.
     "I thought you needed me," Jem said. "There is a wall you have built about yourself, Will, and I have never asked you why. But no one should shoulder every burden alone. I thought you would let me inside if I became your parabatai, and then you would have at least someone to lean upon. I did wonder what my death would mean for you. I used to fear it, for your sake. I feared you would be left alone inside that wall. But now... something has changed. I do not know why. But I know that it is true."
     "That what is true?" Will's fingers were still digging into Jem's wrist.
     "That the wall is coming down."