mika303

They will never comprehend my thoughts... Neither will I.

Just wondering how many stoners are on here ?

I hope you fall in love with her, just like I fell in love with you.
I hope she means the world to you, just like you meant the world to me.
Then I hope she stops talking to you, just like you stopped talking to me.
I hope that she breaks your heart, just like you broke mine.
I hope that it hurts you like hell, just like it did to me.
And I hope you finally realize what you did to me.

& my friend said to me today

"You two are gonna get married one day"
 

I'm THE happiest girl in the world right now.
One of my closest friends moved to Poland at the beginning of September for good. Or so I thought...
He chatted me on Friday and we were talking about how we missed each other and how I really wanted to see him and how I wish he was here right now. I told him he should just run across the ocean to me. He said he would need a couple days. I said okay I'll give you 2 days max. He said he promised. I told him to pinky promise. He did. On Sunday I got a call that he was BACK in America. I couldn't believe it. I ran out in my shorts & tank top on a winter night to find him outside my door. I jumped into his arms and he said "I promised you I'd be here in 2 days. I always keep my promises".

nmf

they say you know your truly happy when reality is better than your dreams.. 
no wonder i cant wait to fall asleep at night

I'm sorry baby, you were the sun & moon to me.

In my head I thought we could be something more. I knew I loved him, and I knew he didn't love me back. I was sure it was a hit and quit deal, except after all the times I snuck out in the middle of the night to meet with him, he never left willingly, and he never stopped wanting to see me. I also knew I was just fooling myself into thinking we could be something more one day, he would never even consider actually being with me....or would he?

When he texted me last night, butterflies flooded my stomach. This always happened. Even after 8 months of doing the midnight ritual the butterflies never ceased. I hopelessly grinned like a foolish girl in love when I saw his name appear on my phone screen. I imedietly starting crying after that. Lately that's how it went down. Everytime he texted me first or chatted me on Facebook, I would grin and be the happiest girl in the world. This feeling lasted about 2 seconds, while the thoughts of heartbreak and how he'll never feel the same about me sank in. The crying lasted more then the smiling.
Of course I told him I would meet up with him. I was longing for him. I missed him. I hadn't seen him in days. I loved being with him. I told him that I would need time to get ready, and he told me that I could just come in my pjs. So I did.

He was waiting for me on the stairs of the office of our neighborhood. I looked at him and he caught my gaze. This happened a lot. I'm not really sure what to think of it though. He always stared at me, as if studying me. It didn't bother me at all. In fact, I liked it.
We talked for an hour. It was nice. So nice. I'd never felt like that before. He took my hand and held it, for no reason at all. We just stood there holding hands.
Then it started to rain, and I started to complain about my hair getting wet. He told me not to worry about it and kissed me. Obviously this wasn't the first itme we kissed but it felt different then ever before. And as he headed off back home I called back for him, so he returned. We talked some more and he said he wanted a hug good bye...he held me for a long time.
I didn't want this night to end, so each time he walked away I told him to come back, and he did.

I think I may be in love...but the worst part about it? I don't think he feels the same. 

On Sunday my friend's brother died in a motorcycle accident.
He was weaving through cars on the highway at a very high speed.
He lost control of the motorcycle.
It skid and he was thrown nearly 100ft. away from the bike.
He was only 19.
He left behind a 15 year old brother, and 7 year old brother, and his parents and friends.
It's amazing how the Polish community can come together as one to support other fellow Polaks in these kinds of situations.
So I'm not asking for faves, I just ask that you please keep the family in your prayers. They are going through some tough times and they might even move to back to Poland....for good.
   



And to think he would still be alive if he only wore a helmet.