Why can't I just wake up one morning
and it'll be like this was all just a bad dream?
I just want to be happy again.
Simple as that.
No more talking, no doctors, no medication.
I forget what it feels like.
Last night, two of my best friends
saved me from taking my own life.
I asked one of them to stay up with me because I was scared of what
I would do. She said she couldn't but she left me with a
very long message hoping I wouldn't do it. And she
contacted my other best friend immediately. She didn't even
tell him about what I was going to do. She just told him to
talk to me. I didn't find that out until this morning. But
after she went to bed, I wrote a suicide note and got myself
prepared. My plan was to cut my wrist until I
overbled. I began to cut. In the middle of it, my
phone vibrated. It was my other best friend. He texted me saying
"ajfgnaowrnooofawnfolawnefoiwnewfggjvdflgn i love
you". I broke down, and I stopped cutting and started talking
to him. We didn't say much, he just continued to tell me that
he loves me and that I'm amazing and he asked what was wrong
and to tell him what I felt. After a while, I think he felt
helpless. He just said "Sleep. :)" and I was so tired at
that point that I just gave into it. This morning, as soon as I
woke up, my body was aching. And I wished I hadn't hurt myself
at all or I did it so much that I was dead. But when I texted the
first friend telling her I was alive, she said "You scared me.
Don't do that again." They give me so much hope.