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My boyfriend wants to join the
Navy SEALs.
I really don't want him to go. He's wanted to since he was in fourth grade. He's gone to military training summer camps, and next year, when we start high school, he's going to take the military training program at his school. He knows how badly I don't want him to go. I don't want to stop  him though, and thankfully, he won't let me. He's going to anyway. But I don't think he fully understands how much it bothers me. Whenever it comes up in conversation, he reminds me that he'll have to serve for twenty years, and that surviving that long in the SEALs isn't an easy thing. Just the thought of ever losing him like that makes me start crying. I haven't seen him in a week and I'm starting to get depressed; how am I going to live if I won't see him for months, possibly even a year or two at a time? I don't know how I'll survive. I worry about him enough as it is, I don't need that to worry about too... Maybe he won't get in because of his astigmatism. As much as I don't want him to have to give up his dream, it'd make me happy. But I'd feel so bad that something so small could stop him from doing what he really wants. He means everything to me, and him being a SEAL... it would kill me. I'm not going to leave him because of it, hell no, but... I just don't know what to do <|3.
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**Not looking for faves, just a vent.**

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