You don't know what you want! You let your friends
control you, They tell you not to do something you don't
do it. They tell you who they think is good for you and who
isn't so you believe them rather than listen to your own mind
and heart. Says you don't have a mind or heart of your
own becuase every decision you make is from what your friends tell
you is best for you so it is their minds and hearts running your
life. Happy one day, not happy the next because it all goes
by what all your friends want you to do and you are not being true
to yourself. If you are so happy then why do you still self
harm, why do you still get depressed, why do you still drink, why
do you still do all the stuff you've been doing to destroy
yourself all this time. You are no different than you were
before because you let everyone else control what you think, feel
and do! Whatever friend is in you life now and is closest to
you that is the one you follow in your thinking, feeling, and
decisions. You are just an empty shell that you let your
friends fill up with their wants for you. Ever think they
tell you the advice they do so they can control you and have you
doing exactly what they want so you will always be there for them?
They don't give a crap about you, they only want you
there to be there for them and for them to have someone to chill
with and that's why they tell you what they think is best for
you. They don't tell you what is best for you becaue they
care about you , they tell you what they think is best for you so
they can keep you with them so they are not alone. Wake up
and smell the coffee, The minute those friends get a guy they
really like they will dump you in a minute then you will be sitting
there all alone in your misery. We are done, so done, I
don't need a person like you, now or ever.