hey my name is Dasuni
I'm a bubble of energy most of the time but I'm a lot deeper than i might seem
I love my family, my friends, music,one direction, anything cute or funny and you
i just moved to a new country and i miss all my friends but for now i try to make friends
and live day to day and i hope that one day this house will become a home
thanks for checking out my account
LOVE U AND YOUR CLEARLY AWESOME IF YOU ARE HERE :D
me
Quotes by mrstomlinson98
seems like the only one who doesn't see your beauty is the
face in the mirror looking back at you
and your tied together with a smile but your coming undone
even if you are scared be brave,
speak even if your voice shakes
stand even if your knees quake
smile even if your heart aches
and things will work out
i feel so worthless no one cares about me no one loves me why
should they i'm nothing special
i get bad grades in school
and don't get invited to any of the cool parties
i'm not artistically skilled or good at any sports
i'm surrounded by people who are so good at everything they
shine out and excel in every little thing they do. they're
special
i don't even think my mom even believes i'll get far in
life that i'll amount to something better than this shell of
a person.
so why should i?
well i don't know if there is a story so i'll just tell
you everything that has happened do far.
on november 15th 1998 the crazy me was bron into the world. i
don't rememb.er much from those days it was just a very happy
blur. and then somewhere around the time i was 7 we won the green
ticket lottery this was kind of a huge deaql so many people try
for it and only a select few get chossen we were one of the lucky
few. it basically means you get an automatic visa and residence
in most countries. a month or so later we were packing up the
only home i had ever known and moving across the world. i was
quite small and i didn't realize the full impact of this. we
were leaving our family and friends behind to move to a huge
country where we knew virtually no one. at first we leaved in my
aunt's tiny apartment but things got complicated and we moved
out. everyhthing is patched up between them now but back then
things were rough. we had not met any sri lankan people (my
nationaity) until one day i got lost in walmart ( i know) and was
calling to my dad in sri lankan another uncle came up thinking i
was his daughter ewho also had happened to get lost. this was the
crazy way i met my best friend and therefore a whole community
that made me feel at home. i settled in and i was happy and at
home everything was perfect until seventh grade when everything
started going down hill. we found out that my grandad was in the
last stage of cancer and six months later we lost him to it. i
saw my dad who was the strongest man i know cry for the very
first time in my entire life. my dad had always been a smoker my
entire life and even though i hated it it was nothing new and
then a week after my school started he had a heart attack and it
was terryfing my mom left me and my bro at home and all our
friends swept in to keep our minds off it. i think i might have
gone crazy if it wasn't for them. i was split up from all my
friends at school and was bullied occasionally. but after a while
it was too much my life was falling apart. you might think i
started hurting myself but i didn't thats not my story i
developed and anxiety disorder. maybe because of everything or
maybe it was always there. but i became petrified of everything i
couldn;t even walk out of my room. i started drifting away from
everyone and i didn't enjoy anything anyymore. going outside
for school even scared me. the weirdest things wqould send me
into panick attacks where i couldn't breath and sometimes i
even fainted. my parents were terrified. over time i dedcided
that it was ruining my life and slowly i faced my fears and it
started to go away the panick attacks were less frequent and i
was getting better. that makes it sound really easy which it was
opposite off. i'll never be the same again and i still have
to deal with in my everyday life. then in 9th grade we packed up
and we all moved back to sri lanka. now im adjusting ot being
away from all the people i care about. funny isn;t it how
everything changed from the beggining. how i didn;t want to go
back. thats where i am now. and i'm adjusting and still
recovering but no one here knows. but life will get better and
i'm happy and sad now but thats how everythings supposed to
be
thats all sorry for the rant