Joined: June 5, 2013
Last Seen: 7 years
user id: 362196
Gender: F
I'm Sarah and I'm a French girl but I wish I was an english girl ! I'm 15 and I hate myself since 5 years. I'm depressive, I'm afraid when I see people, I find me too fat. I'm self-destructer, self-harmer, I'm broken, useless, alone, clueless, confued, betrayed, fragile, on the verge of tears, depressed, anxious, about to break down, pathetic, annoying, lonely, rejected, crushed, I feel like I'm going to fall to pieces at any moment, empty, defeated. I do not like people in my school. Why? Because they think I'm weird and laugh at me. I'd like to speak English fluently. I would like to sing, sing, sing at every moment of my life. I'm afraid of my future. I think that none exists. I want to inspire people. I want someone to look at me and say "because of you, I didn't give up". The only thing stopping me from killing myself is the fact that my parents would find my body.

Quotes by music_saves_people

That's why sad
Songs make me
Cause I don't have
To feel ALONE
Everybody wants to go to Heaven
but nobody wants to die †

3 teens self-harm per hours in UK.
In 2003 24.087 were hospitalised
for self-harm in Australia.☁
3 000 000 american self-harm.

Everybody has problems.
people just hide their crap better than others.
But people aren't going to look at you and run away.
're going to look at you and think that they can talk to you,
and that you'll understand, and that you're brave,
that you're strong. And you are.
u're brave and strong.
I don't want to do this anymore,

don't worry, 
I won't harm myself,

I'm just tired

so very tired

You look at me

with disappointment in your eyes

but I warned you

from the start

I really am not

good enough."
Sleeping is nice because youre not actually dead and youre not awake
so its a win-win situation
My mind is like a puzzle
or a rubik's cube