I'm Sarah and I'm a French girl but I wish I was an english girl ! I'm 15 and I hate myself since 5 years. I'm depressive, I'm afraid when I see people, I find me too fat. I'm self-destructer, self-harmer, I'm broken, useless, alone, clueless, confued, betrayed, fragile, on the verge of tears, depressed, anxious, about to break down, pathetic, annoying, lonely, rejected, crushed, I feel like I'm going to fall to pieces at any moment, empty, defeated. I do not like people in my school. Why? Because they think I'm weird and laugh at me. I'd like to speak English fluently. I would like to sing, sing, sing at every moment of my life. I'm afraid of my future. I think that none exists. I want to inspire people. I want someone to look at me and say "because of you, I didn't give up". The only thing stopping me from killing myself is the fact that my parents would find my body.