Dear Mom,
I'm sorry, I can't be what you want
me to be. I'm sorry I don't deserve your love. I'm
trying to earn it, but you always choose him. I don't know
what to do. I just want you to love me, and care about me. Like
you do for him Your my mom, and I say how annoying you are and
how your a b*tch. But I don't mean it. I just say it to keep
from crying. I just want to matter to
you..