confession :
oh hey, i decided today that i need to
vent. so two years ago i fell for this guy. lets just call
him by his middle name, michael. well i was best
freinds with michael for like a year. then i asked him out
but he said no. but i only fell for him even worse so i
asked him again a couple weeks later via note. on the last
day of school, he handed me a note right before he got on
his bus. it said. "remember that note? well yes."
so then we hung out all summer. i loved him so much. i
always talked about him. we dated for a year and were
inseperable. one day he randomly texted me and said that he
just wanted to be freinds. when i asked him why, he told me
that he never really loved me and it was all a lie. but how
could someone spend so much time with me and be faking the
whole time. let me tell you, a kiss like his takes real
feeling. when i sat ther elooking at his texts i noticed
that his signiture in the last texts wasnt my name, it was
(middle name) i <3 maria. later that week my friend
"taylor" and i were hanging out with her
boyfriend who was close with michael. i asked him and he
tol dme that michael and maria had been going out for two
weeks. but michael had dumped me only a week before. i was
so devastated that he cheated on me. i started cutting
myself and wearing all black. i starved myself and listened
to "emo" music. my amazing friends helped me
through it all. me and michael hated eachother for a
while, but we got over it and became friends again. through
all this i never stopped loving him. but for two months now
ive been dating another boy, "doug". and my best
friend "jade" is SO falling for michael. they
almost went out but then they got in a huge fight and now
he hates her. now he and another girl "alex" slow
danced at the last school dance, and he told me he might
ask her out. i dont hate alex, shes a nice girl, i dont
want to hurt her. and i DEFINETLY dont want to take jades
chances with michael away. i would never want to hurt doug,
or his friendship with michael. and i dont even think
michael cares about me or wants me back at all, but i love
him. he will always be my first love.
SOMEONE PLEASEEE HELP ME? if you read it all, i LOVE you.