Lethal*

 

 

 

you made me feel
ashamed for leaving





   
     you're so lethal, babe.

i do not care about you. i am 100% over you. i love another boy. 
or am i?
yes, i am.
now stop questioning your feelings. 
he doesnt want you.
the other boy does.
the other boy wasnt touching you like how he was.
you havent known the other boy since you were 9.
the other boy isnt as nice.
the other boy hates you.
you lost your chance.
he thinks youre annoying and clingy.
he doesn't care about you
or me
or the rest of us.
you only need the other boy. 
and us. 
you need us. 
you should go after the other boy.
the one who hates you. 
why would i do that? 
he's still one of my best friends. 
he does love me. 
doesnt he?
little girl
we'll make him love you
or he dies.
-my schziophrenic diary.
july 12th 2014, 1:03 am est 
italics are the voices in my head
non-italics is just me thinking

every choice comes with consequences.
even the decision to not make a choice.
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A meeting was held quite far from Earth
It's time again for another birth.
Said the Angels to the LORD above,
This Special Child will need much love.
His progress may be very slow, Accomplishments he may not show.
And he'll require extra care From the folks
he meets down there.
He may not run or laugh or play,
His thoughts may seem quite far away,
In many ways he won't adapt,
And he'll be known as handicapped.
So let's be careful where he's sent,
We want his life to be content.
Please LORD, find the parents
who Will do a special job for you.
They will not realize right away The leading role they're asked to play, But with this child sent from above Comes
stronger faith and richer love.
And soon they'll know the privilege given In caring for their gift from Heaven.
Their precious charge, so meek and mild,
Is HEAVEN'S VERY SPECIAL CHILD.