know the absolute worst feeling in the
Getting into your dads car after a
Friday Night Football
Smiling, Laughing, & Acting
as if nothing's wrong. Then, getting home, and running
up to your room, telling your dad that your gonna
'change'. Running up the stairs, going into your room,
and shutting the door, locking it behind you.
Throwing your phone on your bed, then falling down after it,
starting to cry. Shoving your face into a pillow so no one will
hear. Grabbing your teddy bear that you secretly named after
him looking at it, and saying ;
"Your name isn't ___ anymore."
Then you decide to get up and put some sweats on. You go over to
your mirror. And look at yourself. And you start crying all over
again, even harder. Because you see your mascara running. Then
going back over to your bed, sitting down, putting your head into
your hands, and bawling.
That's the worst